Friday, April 16, 2010 Y 4:25 AM
Gosh...what's happening to me? WHY WHY WHY?????? ahhhh, i seriously don't know what she is thinking. I don't like her. She make me believe in her and now she seem so distant. She is obviously just a friend but I thought she was an important friend. Well, now I don't know what to do. Am I suppose to continue sharing my thoughts with her or should I just shut myself up from her? I get the feeling of being...toyed with. Like, the feelings. I don't mean the love type -.- more of the trust there. I trusted her more than anyone but now she is pushing me aside. It seems like she betrayed me, used me than threw me. She, they, don't seem like my friends anymore. I feel so odd with them. I am getting reallly bad, negative and ill feelings. This isn't good at all. What happened to me? D;Tomorrow...is the day when the Sec 4s are stepping down. The day that i finally dread. :(Why does she always get the light while I don't? Why am I thinking this all now? Is this jealousy? noo..i don't want to be jealous. I feel happy for her for alot of things but why i can't be of equal level? :( I don't want to think about it anymore. It's harming me more than it did.
