So many things happened today.

Shall update tomorrow. Super tired.

I feel disappointed, though for a different reason, altogether, it just goes down to the same word Expectation.

Sometimes we just can't expect much from others because it brings your hopes down. It damages your trust for others. Brings you to think so much such that things go wrong.

Whatever. I'm not going to care.

Okay...So today is tiring. Ahh I feel like sleeping already. Okay, I shall sleep early today. Try to anyways.

Today school was ultimately boring. We went through the papers but no one had the motivation to do corrections. It's so BORING. And I don't see the point since we can't change our marks anymore. Okay fine, Maths we can learn from our mistakes though its the paper I hate most.But the rest like Eng? I don't get the point other than wasting time

Ohh speaking of English, MSN was being so nice. She actually DOWNLOADED the Hello MV and showed the class because it was requested before exams and she was suppose to show us before exams but didn't. Hmm...she's pretty nice in terms of that xD Though obviously, can guess the FANGIRLS in 2G3. Lucky Hafizah wasn't here. Or she will just turn the whole class upside down -.-

And this year is coming to an end. Time seems to fly pass especially when you are having fun eh? I would say I HAD fun in 2G3. Everyone is so nice here. Oh gosh, I'm going to miss everyone so much :(

Went out with Gladys today. Wanted to go Queensway Shopping Mall but ended up going to Vivo because Gladys seem reluctant to go Queensway...So oh well~~~

But Vivo was nice (thanks to Viency who suggested it). I saw so many shoes there xD I saw one that I TOTALLY LIKEDDD!!!:D But I guess I'll go to Queensway on Sat first than if don't have than go Vivo ((:

AND I FOUND SOMETHING I LIKE AND WANTED AND BOUGHT SOMETHING I LIKE AND WANTEDDD!!! And there were many more. Okay, I'm starting to really like Vivo :D Probably going there a few more times to SHOP.

But one thing, the things there are FREAKINGLY EX. Even finding for an AFFORDABLE lunch was hard. We walked for at least half an hour before settling down on Gloria's (something). Other than our main course, Gladys ordered a Oreo cheesecake and we shared and it was DAMN FREAKINGLY NICEEE *drools*. They also gave us free Cappuccino but too bad, I don't really know how to appreciate coffee~~

We went on to shopping and it was fun. Like really really fun (: Hope we can go out more often like that. Like just randomly walking around and into shops than when we find something we want than we will go WOW together. HAHAHHAHA xD

Okay, I think I shall go sleep soon. Seriously tired.

Yesterday was tiring~ But fun and YAYYY-ISHH!! heheheh xD

Note*: Not much people will get why. Probably one~

~23rd Oct~

Went out with my mum from 12.30pm all the way to 8.30pm~ We walked around Orchard like nobody's business xD We were suppose to find a pair of shoes for me but it's either too ex or not nice.Sigh. So we ended up buying HER cosmetic stuff, HER shoes and 2 of my clothes xD Okay at least I HAD something. Shall go out again next Sat to buy her bag from Ion xD

AHHHH!!! I'M SO SUPER JEALOUS. It was KPOP NIGHT CONCERT x( And I saw this group of guys holding the tickets. OH GOSH. I'M JEALOUS D:

That's why the train was so empty though it was peak hour.
That's why City Hall was so crowded.

Hmph. *sulks*

Came back, ate dinner, bathed, MSN-ed, played Audi, continue MSN-ing.

Slept at 1.30am +

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24 oct


Suppose to go out today but because SOMEONE over slept and SOMEONE cancelled it due to raining. Hmph. That's why I'm so bored now. But oh well~~I was partially lazy too... xD

Not much for now. Just computer-ed and slacked since I woke up till now :/

Ah, after tomorrow 2pm, my choice will be set. And it will be all to God then...I'm still considering if I should change my choice. My current choice is Triple Science 8 subject + Lit and SS, Higher Chinese. But I was thinking if I should put Triple 9 as first instead...If I really can't than I'll drop one humans? I really don't know...

But triple 8 is risky... :/

Sigh

I'm confused. Really confused.

I can't decide if I should take triple science or double science.
I can't decide if I should take Core or not.
I can't decide WHICH combination I should take.

Gosh. I really hate making decisions. Especially when they are major ones. Why do I have to be so indecisive? It's not good.

Really.

Let's just prepare to die tomorrow.

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Hmm...My father can be really nice if he was in a happy mood. It started out bad anyways. He was scolding us on how we did not believe in God during dinner. But my sister told him we actually prayed before sleep. I'm not sure about her. But I do pray most of the time since P5 (or earlier) ^^ And that actually made his day. So I took the chance to tell him about streaming.

So we started discussing after dinner. And as what I expected, he was promoting Biology because he took it. But even when he didn't, I already had in mind to take Bio. Just not sure if it's 2 science or 3. Yeah, that is what lead me to my post ^ there. So after discussing and changing a few times, I settled on :

3 science, 1 humans (SS+ Geog).

I know it's really risky. But I really want to take triple science and I really hate Humans. But I really must make sure I am strong in SS and Geog than. Okay, now I am debating between Lit and Geog. Lit- not sure if I can analyse properly. Geog- Not strong in General Knowledge.

Like seriously. I can't stand newspapers. Nor watching the news. But argh. ARGH.

ARGHHHH!!!

I hate this. I really do.

And I was seriously in a bad mood because of this and something else _____. So when my father was promoting Bio, it kinda, well...soothe me I guess. It's pretty interesting actually. I mean, he talks and I listen. And I didn't need to say anything. But I was listening. So, I got my mood back. I guess. And discussed about the subject combination.


But well. It's only a trial. Dateline is 25th Oct 2pm.

So, there's always a possibility I'll change it.

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Anyways, I'm happy. REALLY REALLY HAPPY. I mean, it's a contrast to what I just said up there. It's true, I'm experiencing this splitting headache. I.just.can't.think.properly. BUT my father WAS SO NICE!!!! HE WAS BEING SO REASONABLE AND NICE AND NICE. He let me ____ _ _____ ____ :D

And my mum...It was well...Not on purpose. She didn't want to let me or at least was disapproving. So, I got angry. Than I got disappointed. Than I got sad. And I ended up crying (naw, I won't let them see that so they didn't). I felt like crying during dinner.I don't know why. Actually I do. But it's like, why cry during dinenr type of thing? Okay fine, it doesn't make sense now. I'm talking crap. So yeah, my mum grew soft when she saw me being so silent and she ended up helping me persuade. And my father was in a good mood. So they let me :D

Don't blame her. I rarely do that. Like turning totally silent. And I can't do it on purpose like throwing a tantrum or hiding. So she FINALLY UNDERSTOOD.

They just don't know how much it meant. It meant ALOT. But it's only that they don't know. They never do. But how am I going to say it?

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Okay I guess I shall sleep "early" today. Feel so sleepy and tired. Today is a full-of-emotions day and tomorrow will be the -die-death-and-dead day. So yeah. I'm not gonna think so much now. My brain juice is officially squished out.

Night~

Hahhaha today band was quite fun (: Though that 2 PEOPLE abandoned me after lunch. Meanies.

Omg...side track~~~There's this person in my block singing This is Me like now? At 10.06pm? It's pretty *coughs coughs* okay nvm. I shall NOT be mean.

Anyways back to topic. Today we started playing Glee. Though it's not particularly nice but it was not that bad either~~~Totoro is still nicer. :D During lunch, our dear Evelyn helped us buy drinks before she left xD So i owe her $0.80 now...:/ And she refuse to take her pizza. So, we scissors paper stoned for the 2 pieces of pizza. Grace and Hadassah got the big one :( And later Mun Yun won. So I had to compete with Tha Yang for that half piece of pizza. AND THA YANG WON!!! BLEAH. So I helped to shower cheese on Grace's pizza ~~~

Tha Yang went on a mission to steal toilet roll but she failed xD because the toilet auntie was that. tsk tsk.Went to crap around and argued who to throw away the things~~~ Went up for combine and ZZZ. I.SERIOUSLY.DON'T.LIKE.MRS CHUA. She just HAD to play the songs that I was alone - Glee and Totoro -.- But it was okay I guess~~~

During the 5min break Tha Yang as usual took out her shoes. And she didn't realise she was stepping on her mouthpiece with her socks :P So she took my water ):[ and washed it with the water going into the cup. And yeah...just imagine the mixture... *pukes*

After band, went home with Sheryl and went to her house AGAIN. Oh before that we went to Popular to buy her father's present. That auntie was so irritating. We had to call her like at least 3 times before she FINALLY opened the glass door for us (the pen). Waste time :( And that Sheryl, she actually wasted $1 on wrapping paper and she didn't even want to keep the other half. Tsk tsk.

But than, she treated me to cookies ^^ ~~~

Went to her house to play badminton again and went home after that~~~

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There's school tomorrow :( WHYYYY!!! I feel so lack of sleep. Zzzz. And tomorrow is gonna be so boring. Interhouse games (N). Sec 3 placement talk (N). I don't even know what combination I want to take. :(

Okay so that's about it ((:

There's so much things I want to say but yet, I can't seem to find any way to. I mean, they don't bother asking. And they don't seem to have TIME for me to even talk to them. They just don't understand how hard it is to even start telling. And yet they don't do anything to help. This the time where I find that, well, I don't know...

Sigh. I wonder when can I actually tell them. What a disappointment.

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Band was not bad I guess. Just that well, I DETERIORATED a lot, as expected. I can't even hold high D properly -.-'" But overall, it was quite fun. Only when we reached Incantation did I became restless. Thanks to Grace -.- She spreaded her restlessness to me. BLEAH.

Gave Violet her prezzie today. So happy (: She seem to like it. OF COURSE SHE LIKE IT. And she gave me something too :D It's my early bdae prezzie I think...It's Hong Ki's name badge thingy hahahah xD she didn't even tear out the price tag but oh well~ I know it anyways~~~

Grace and Evelyn is abandoning me tomorrow :( Partly anyways. Evelyn- Dad's birthday -.-, Grace- CIP. WHY MUST THEY DO IT ON THE SAME DAY!!!hmph !!! *ignores them*

Moving on, went home with Sheryl because the rest of GHG is like *busy* and went to her house to play badminton. And her bro tagged along. And after some time they were like...quarrelling cum fighting (not that serious) but yeah. Kinda awkward for me there...But it was fun (: Manage to hit 20 + times :D

Start of fan corner~~~

Okay fine. I find that I'm starting to like SHINee too. But it's normal WHAT. On Tumblr MOST of the FTI stans I follow are ALL SHINee fans too. So yeah~~~ They are two different bands anyways. One is instrument one is dance~~~:D Thanks to Violet and her Tumblr. So influential -.-

Ok, I don't have much to say now~~~ But F.T Island is releasing a new album soon :D So happy~~~

End of fan corner~~~




So I was thinking how did they do that. They were not rich. Yet they can follow their path. ___ ____ _ ____. ___ ___'_ _? Because they are gifted? Than why am I not? I doubt I'm gifted in anthing. Why am I even thinking about all this now? Argh. But I really don't want to mug for life just because I have to. I want to do what I like and enjoy what I want to do. But it's just so ... impossible? Argh. I don't know. Really don't know.

Okayy I feel that my life is so boring now. Not because there is no need to study, but because I can't go out :(

Fri actually can go out with Petrina they all but because of LSCEP, than cannot go :(

Yesterday: Jia Wei and Gladys had to do LSCEP while Li Wei has to go book shopping. Hmph. So even without band, it was so boring. zzz

Today: No one is free. Hmph.

Tomorrow and Tues, supposedly a holiday, there is band. Zzzz. Life is bad.

And my parents won't let me join _____ class. But I've made up my mind. If they refuse, I'll use my own savings. It's not that it is very expensive anyway. I am SO.VERY.DETERMINED.

So anyways, today at least got to go out for 2hrs because had to accompany my sis to buy assesment book as well as buy Violet's b'dae present. Why am I saying it here? Because I know she won't visit xD I even took a picture of it.



:D This is part of it only. I refuse to show the price. But it's ex...like really :/ But I guess it's worth it ((: for a friend like Violet.

It's so unfair. I want it for myself too :( Don't feel like giving her...But argh.

And it's a bad idea to go comics connection. Really bad one. It made me so tempted with everything D: I saw this and F.T Island's one. Than I saw SHINee's poster O: NOT FAIRRR!!! :( I WANT THE POSTERRRR!!! D:

So in the end, I had to pull myself away and quickly go to Popular to meet my sis or she will have to come and pull me away or something. Bleah. I hate comics connections when I have to buy something for other people. I'll just tempt myself.

But than I need my savings for things...mentioned above ^ So yeahh...Sighhh

Okay so that's about it~

Do me a favour. If anyone happen to manage to come in, please tag.

Does our future really lie in our own hands?

How can it be when we don't even get to choose what we want to be. We don't even get a chance to do what we like. And given the opportunity to say what we think?

Why don't they bother at all? Why do they have to disappoint me time and again? They were suppose to know me best.

Yet?

Why do I also have to carry that bit of hope in me?

Why?

Ok, while waiting for the imedia to encode finish...I shall update :D

Yesterday, IT WAS THE OFFICIAL END OF EOYS!!! OMGGG!!! I was holding my scream while waiting for the papers to be collected~~~ Ahahahahahaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS DAY :D After talking and jumping around, went to the foyer with Grace to wait for Mun Yun and Debbie.

Oh gosh...It was long...But they FINALLY came!!!

Went to ION orchard and bought donuts~~than went to the places Mun Yun wanted to go. Gosh, all her fault, I bought stickers in Prologue =( But the stickers seriously cute xD Went on to Taka and walked around while waiting for Evelyn to come~~~

After waiting for 30min + she was still not in sight, than she said she was lost. So, we walked the same route back and found her :D She was not recognisable at all!!! Omg, not because Debbie said she there, I wouldn't even realise she was there xD So anyways, went to eat lunch at Ajisen and shared with Evelyn because

1) Expensive
2) I was not particularly hunry...after all the snacks xD

Went to borders after that and we decided there was no where else to go...So, we went home~~~ It's fun!!! HHAHAHHA!!! Especially during lunch. Gosh, Mun Yun and Debbie's bickering is hilarious xD
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Today, Jia Wei, Li wei and Gladys was suppose to come. At 10.05am, Li Wei called and it woke me up. And to my horror, she was already downstairs. So I opened the door with my pyjamas on and without brushing my teeth O: Went to brush teeth, bathe, pack my bed, eat breakfast, and started doing LSCEP.

Gosh, I was surprised how effecient we were :D We manage to record finish by 1.30pm!!! Went on to buying lunch and I FINALLY got to bring her to the bubbletea shop :D I recommend it to everyone who came to my house xD Ate lunch while editing the project and at 3.30, she left. Sent her to the bus stop and waited for the bus with her~~~

Than I started slacking for a whole 1 and a half hour before I went for my evening jog with my brother~~~

Yeah, so that was about it. Sigh. Actually wanted to go out with Petrina they all today for bowling but because of LSCEP ): Ah well~~~ At least we manage to finish :D

Let me check..
OMG
IT'S NOT DONE YET
ARGH
NVM
I AM UPLOADING TOMORROW
DON'T CARE ALREADY

Listening to I'll Remember You... Sigh, it brings back all the memories... This song is nice. Not because of Sec 4 farewell I wouldn't even know this song.

Memories

I should start bringing my camera from tomorrow. 2G3. Yepp.

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Today, was the horrible-est day. The subject that I had most confidence in. The only subject that I depend on my A1 with. It's all gone. Gone gone gone.

It was so nerve wrecking.

I felt like tearing my paper.
Really.
Literally tear it.

But of course, I didn't. I didn't finish it. A lot of blanks. I didn't check. And my hands were shaking like nobody's business. I hope I didn't get any careless mistakes because of my HANDS.

It was so disappointing. And it made me so pissed with myself. And the setter of course (I know who she is -.-).

I shouted at Dilys and Priya... I don't think there's anymore... But it was not on purpose. :/ They just had to come and say that something like, "Aiya, the paper surely very easy for you right" when I was so pissed. But yeah, I was a good girl and said sorry after that (:

I just hope they won't say that like, anymore. Not that there is any more paper left other than Science...But yeah.

So that's all for today. Can't wait for tomorrow, that 2hrs to be over. And we'll be done with it. DONE DONE DONE! Than we can go out. And play. And have fun. And go crazy. And be happy. But this have to be done before results are back. Yepp.


Ok, though it's only a few hours away, now I'm still in reality where Science is not over yet. So yeah, back to the stupid mad Science world.

Ooooh~~~~

FINALLY. FINALLLLLYYY!!!

GEOG
AND
LIT
IS

FINALLY

OVERRRR!!!!! :D

You have no idea how much I hate lit and geog. It made me so stress and nervous. Argh. Oh gosh, I think I was really hyperventaliting during Geog. Like seriously. Difficulty breathing. Well...as expected, I didn't finish. But who cares? No one does...Or at least ALMOST no one does...


BUT STILL!!! IT'S OVERRR!!! Now I can concentrate on Science and Maths, the 2 subject that I supposedly to score well. :/

8 down.
2 more to go.

2 DAYS MORE TO FREEDOMMMM!!!! Than I can carry out ALL of my after-exams plans 8D
But for now, I shall...mug for maths...Though I kinda lost interest already...I am already in a half-after-exams mood...Sigh

And well...It just daunted on me that we are seperating as a class soon...): It's been more than 1 year...And seriously, I LOVE G3 ♥ Though some of us might go to the same class...But it will be different already...Everyone will make new friends and sigh...

OKAY. I SHALL NOT THINK ABOUT IT NOW. NO DEPRESSING THOUGHTS DURING EXAMS.

But still...

:(

I hate to type this.

But
she just had to be so 2 faced.
I can't believe it. She just had to show much much of a hyporcrite she was.I thought I probably read her wrongly. But no. She just had to prove it almost immediately.She changed within a few seconds. Omg. Just thinking of it creeps me out. It's so scary...cary. Really.
I don't know what to say. Really.

Argh. I hate it when I start to feel this way. I just HAVE to think about so many things and think it so deeply. It may be simple but I will just make things complicated.

Actually, I've no idea what I'm talking about. Really. My mind is blank. I'm just typing...I don't know...My heart?My fingers?

I wish I can just knock my head someday and I forget how I am like (do I even know it myself?) and will change. I don't know...Ok, I should stop typing all this nonsensical stuff and start using my brain.

So yay, 2 papers down.

6 more to go.

8 more days~

Nope, I won't be doing well this semester. Confirmed. During paper 1 just now for eng and chi, my mind was as blank as the paper. I just...I don't know. Got stuck. It felt like my brain had no more juice left. And the paper just have to be so hard. Argh. Definitely not a good day today.

But not thinking about it anymore. Or trying not to. At least one of the papers which I worry is over. Now, I left others to be worried of. Especially next Tues. I just don't feel prepared (for the fact that I'm not)



I think I'm squeezing my brain with too much things. Simply.Too.Much. It ended up with nothing but more confusion and more...I don't know what's the word. Oh well.

Anyways, changed my password to something random. I can't even think of a proper password. Maybe that's a good thing. I don't really want people to come in though I want to. Ok, nonsence spouting again.

There's school tomorrow. Argh.

Disappointed.




Or is it just me?

Ok, I am not trying to be mean.

But I am utterly disgusted. Or is the word horrified? I don't know...maybe because I am just specially against her. I've no idea why. But yeah ):

I.DON'T.WANT.HER.TO.HAVE.THE.SAME.TASTE.AS.ME.

But I think she has. Worst still, it's EXACTLY THE SAME. Omg. Ok fine, there's probably thousands of them out there. But. But. Why her? What made it worse was that, she just HAVE to make it so obvious. Like as if she is trying to announce it to the whole world -.- Zzzzz.

Anyways, crap. I forgot what I want to type...

*pause*

Ahhh. Forget it. I officially forgot what is it. Anyways, I am happy today ^^ I have a feeling my sis is going into K-pop. MUAHAHHAHAHA!!! xD Why did I say that? Because she is talking to me about kpop nowadays. Not really talk...but she mentioned it and asked me questions~~~ Lalalala~~~ Soon she will go into kpop too. Confirm will. That's the power of Kpop now~

Alright. Enough blogging. Shall sleep late today to complete more work. I practically slacked the whole day yesterday.

I am minced meat. ):