I really can't stand it anymore. I know what you are thinking about.

Really.

But sometimes you simply think too much. It's not that way. But that's how I felt when you did it to me. And the thing is, I doubt you even realised. But now that it's over, or I think it is, I get to see a clearer picture of your situation because your situation is not over yet.

The jealousy well. It was uncalled for. I hate that feeling because it ends up with nothing but more unhappiness. I am trying not to get into your way. For you, I don't think there is anything I can do because nothing is going to work. Especially now. I'll just have to wait till you wake up yourself.

But just to tell you this, you are much luckier than me.

So please.

Please stop all these. It may be alright for you because you are the one doing all these. But hey, have you tried standing in my shoes? It might not be on purpose. Your small actions do hurt but I'll take it that you did it because of various reasons. But if you can, please stop it. I had enough of it.

And please do not doubt my ability of reading you.
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Everyone have their own problems. Every friendship does. I could see alot of people around me are facing problems themselves.

But what I hope?

Only real friendship that has gone through storms and difficulties will become stronger.

Maybe that's my wishful thinking. I kept hoping things will get better too. Hahaha, was I stupid? Or will you prove me wrong?

Ahh. Side tracking. Again. Gosh, after this, I really have to go study. Good grades are not going to fall from the sky.

28/8/10

Botanic Gardens performance. I shall say, it wasn't that bad. Neither was it that good. But naw it's ok, we still attracted quite alot of people (:

It was really fun. hehehhe. It first started with reaching the band room almost on time. Just a few minute before 11am. (Y) Next, we moved on to section talk. Or so called section talk because our dear SL was busy so we just discussed on how to do something as a section. Hehhehhe xD We came up with lots of weird ideas but none of them work. Only after that, finally Jae Young thought of the idea of a crown so, Grace and Tha Yang started work. Jae Young made her own xD

When Mun Yun came out, we started exchanging gift. Hehehehe! So happy about Mun Yun, Tha Yang and Evelyn's reaction ^^ (Of course they must like it. Bleah. I did it till 2am and continued in the morning) But anyways, I super like all the gifts (: Mun Yun's one have Hong Ki on it!!!

Next, we went to have lunch and had Lee Wee once again. It's ok actually. (: But I didn't finish it because I just had breakfast -.- But than I bet my box was the cleanest. Or one of the cleanest anyway. xP When the canteen was empty, we started worrying whether we are late but apparently, we were not ((:

Had a small combine where Mrs Chua just randomly went through some parts of the song. And gosh. I was surprised when Mun Yun played the American Graffiti solo =D (Actually, somehow, I had this feeling she will play it. But than again, I didn't expect it xD) And something happened during that.

MUN YUN SQUASHED MY HANDMADE KAKASHI ;( Or Tha Yang. Now there is a dent on his face. Bleah.

After we finish, Mun Yun realised her Kakashi was missing. Hmph. And she started frantically searching for it. Hehehehe xD That was very cute though xD I knew Evelyn kidnapped him but than we pretended that we didn't know. AND SHE DIDN'T SUSPECT ANYTHING. Omg. xD That was so funny. Only when we started laughing did she realise it was with Evelyn xD

Started moving the percussion to the truck and move on to waiting for the bus.

Bus ride was pretty short since Botanic Gardens was so nearby. But sadly, I was sitting all alone with the stand as accompany~~~ *sulks in the lonely world* But yeah, that's what happen when we have an odd no. in the section. Oh well.

Next, we set up and blah blah blah stuff~ And gosh, when we were practicing that time, many people started to come and look. It was so embarrasing when people started to clap. We were like giggling. They thought the performance started O: But they must be wondering why the songs sounded so weird with only the starting and ending. And in the middle, the conductor was actually talking on the phone O: Me and Grace started to freak out and was trying to make someone make and announcement to tell them it starts at 5.30pm. But apparently no one did. Sigh.

During break, we went to refill the section water bottle. Where ever we pass, people will look at us. xD Hahahha, the crown at work ((: But I think it's quite cute and if it helps to attract people to the performance, I don't mind xD Grace came running to us halfway. The crown helped her find her way to us. See, the crown is really useful ((:

The concert started shortly after that. Oh but before that, I was really horrified because before the concert started which was only 5-10min before we went to refill, the water bottle was already more than 3/4 empty.

Anyways, all the songs were ok. (: Hehehehehe, so happy that Tha Yang and Mun Yun brought Taemin and Kakashi along respectively =D The point of making it was so that they both can support Mun Yun and Tha Yang for their solos ^^ Mun Yun manage to solve the MYSTERY SOLO!!! ^^ (Y) Though it kinda changed abit. But than I shall consider it 5/6 solved xD And both their solos are (Y) =D

At the end of the performance, it was pretty weird because we didn't know what to do. People started to call for encore but we didn't have any more songs to play. So we just stood there but than after that, we just started moving off xD But oh well~~

After helping to move the percussion up the truck, went to pack up. And this time, TAEMIN WAS MISSING. Bleah. Than Tha Yang started to worry. But she thought maybe just MAYBE Mun Yun kidnapped him. And I was pretending I didn't know again. Kekekekkee xD And she actually believed I didn't know xD

Only when Mun Yun returned it to her than I confessed that I actually knew. Even Mun Yun got fooled xD (Though I was standing in front of her when she kidnapped him, she forgotxD) So I was wondering if my acting skills good or are they gullible xD I don't mind having gullible parents in Trumpetland xD Very cutee xD

Sadly, I was sitting alone again because I feel bad if I just snatch another person's partner. That person will be lonely :/ So well~ But than later, sat with Rachel from percussion. And I thought she was from 2C2. And she tricked me ;(

Reached school~~~ Packed up and had a small debrief before dismiss. Sadly, Grace, Hadassah and Jae young left early so we only had an incomplete picture of the royal family of trumpetland. :/ On the way out, greedy Tha Yang and Debbie took 1 box of cake each. I stole one from Tha Yang xD

Waited for my father with Evelyn, Mun Yun, Tatiana and later Prim. But they left first :( Which left me alone. When Ms Azilah was about to leave, she realised I was waiting than she was like "You waiting alone?" Because the rest of the sec 3s left were going to the MRT but than Joan from Clarinet was not so she said she was going to wait for me. But than, just as she was saying it, her mum came. Sigh. So in the end, waited for my father with the teachers and the group of Sec 3s (I can't really remember who though). Suddenly, Shermaine was shouting black cat!xD Omg. That was hilarious because only did we realise it was Mdm Azlina's bag. Hahhahahah xD But in the dark it does look like a stationary cat xD Too stationary though. Because of that, Ms Azilah shared a very funny joke on what happened during YOG about Shermaine and it was funnny xD After a while, my father FINALLY came -.-

Got really tired when I reach home. To the extend I actually talked to the wrong person on Facebook. Gosh.

Phew~ Such a long post. Oh well. I want to note it down so that when I come back to read again, I can remember everything ^^ Got to go wash my shoe now.~

Okies. This is the band post. (:

Went to band super early because lessons ended early and I had nothing to do. The storeroom wasn't open yet so I simply went a little crazy with Violet. More like she went crazy. Over her dear Jay Chou~~ Lalalala~~~ Oh gosh, seriously. She was like "Hey I show you this MV." Than right after the song, she will be like "OMG THIS IS DAMN NICE. MUST HEAR!" Or even before the song ended, she would chooose another song. hahahah xD ~~~

Sectionals was fun. But sadly, it was short because we only have it till 4pm. Than we went in for combine and well...all I would have to say is, if we are going to play like that tomorrow, we will just embarass ourselvves. Sigh. I shall pray really hard things will go the way we want tomorrow.

Combine was fun too (: We did not need to change place as much as last time. Hahahhaa. Actually, I realised, just by changing 2 scores, we only need to move once. xD Anyways, time really flies when we are enjoying ourselves :D After they said pack up, went for a small sectionals only to play We Are The World~~~ The fun part was here~~~

"Hardworking" Tha Yang continued to practice and she told us to pack up first. But than later, she admit she was waiting for Mun Yun. ( How sweet ((: I've always been proud that I have such loving ex-father and mother in law and current papa and mama xD ) Okay, so when we reached the band room, Natasha told Evelyn to call them back for debrief than if they want to practice can practice after that. But because our dear Evelyn who injured her leg AGAIN, cannot run, so she asked me to inform them.

But when I went up, they were on the way down.~~~ (Aiya, they where got so hardworking one xD heheheh ) And when I reached them, just nice, Mun Yun dropped her file and all her scores flew MUAHAHAHAHA!!! And well, of course I was laughing because that sight was funny xD And We Qin was like, you came up here just to laugh at her one right xD Hehehheh xD

Oooh. So seeing that Mun Yun hands were full, I went to help. And I offered to help her carry her trumpet :D And SHE LET MEEE!!!MUAHAHAH xD Tha Yang was like "Ahhhh!!! You never let me hold! (or something like that) HEHEHEHHE THA YANG IS JEALOUSS xP But I was the FIRST to touch that trumpet even before Mun Yun MUHAHAHA xP

Anyways, went home together and somehow, it felt weird to go home so "early" during band. Was discussing about SHINee on the way home and I don't know if I did, but I MIGHT have seperated the pages from Yu Nwe's album OOOOPS. SUPER SORRRY!!! If I did... *embarrassed*

Okiess, so tomorrow is concert. Got to work hardd!!! ((: I shall stop here~

Okay, I guess I'll blog first. I need to write down everything I need to do first.

So things to do:

1) Make a timetable
2) Make concert present (This is on hold, I might not make though :/ I mean firstly, I don't have much materials and secondly, I am never good at making thing~)
3) Go around wishing people good luck for the concert tomorrow on FB other than C.A.T.S since I will be writing "love" letters to them ((:
4) Secret mission for myself (I hope it helps (: )
5) Watch the *erhms* video again to help me remember my mini project because I am DETERMINED to finish it by next week. :D

Okay, so I guess it's all for now. But I have a feeling I won't be able to finish some of these task because of the word SIDE TRACKING.

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Today was quite a fun day. Hahahhahha xD I really like today :D Even though band was extra practice, but it was one of the best practice I think.

Lessons weren't too bad today.

English was slackish (as always). Lit was quite fun though xD I think Ms Ng was in a good mood. She keeps making jokes with us and we went through the Lady Macbeth worksheet which was not bad because she went through the answers and didn't ask to collect (luckily because dear Gladys didn't do and print -.-)
P.E was fun too ((: I am starting to like volleyball alot, especially when that *erhms* teacher is gone. He is so g_ _. We learnt a new skill which was serving. And sadly, the ball flew everywhere :( But when the game can continue, it's fun ~~~

Maths was the killer lesson though. One of the rare times. Because we got back our test. And I got seriously very low. I mean, I expected it already because I didn't do 2 questions which made me lose 6 marks but because of one working, she gave me 1 mark which makes it 5.

Than, THAN, I GOT THIS STUPID. IDIOTIC. STUPID.FOOLISH. STUPID

CARELESS MISTAKE -.-

It was so stupid. The worst thing is, it made me lose ALOT of marks. Oh gosh. I really have to buck up. If maths I don't score well, there's no other subjects I can already.

So anyways, science was okay too. Household electricity is quite simple. Better than electricity. And JC was being irritating today because he let us off early. On time anyways. Which is like so rare. But what makes it irritating is that, he always let us off early at the wrong time. For me anyway. -.-

AND I OVERSPENT MY MONEY )))'; I feel so saddd. I AM SUPPOSE TO BE HAVING A MASS SAVING UP NOWWW D'; Oh gosh. Seriously. I HAVE TOTALLY NO SELF CONTROL AT ALL ))): I wanted to NOT spent any money today. But than, in the end, for recess, I spent 30 cents which was totally UNNECESSARY. Than, I thought for lunch I won't buy anything. But in the end, THANKS TO HEMA'S TEMPTATION -.-, I went to buy fried olive rice and another $1.30 gone~~~ ): NEXT UP, omg, after band, that Rui Ying went to tempt me to buy food -.- HMPH. That was very very very unnecessary. Another $1 gone. *sigh* The worst part is here. I saw my sister's sms and she actually bought my share of pizza, so in the end, I have to pay another $8 +. Which means, I am not saving but instead, taking money out of my piggy bank. FOR FOOD SOMEMORE. omg.

Okay~~~ I shall stop my post here. I'll seperate the band post with this school post.((:

OH GOSHHHH!!!

I.SERIOUSLY.AM.GOING. CRAZZZYY!!!

Omgggg!! Like seriousllyyy??? I WANT TO GO FOR K POP NIGHT CONCERTTTT!!!!

F.T ISLAND ♥♥♥
SHINee ♥♥♥
SNSD~~~

Ahhh!!! But than sigh. It's like, so many things to consider :(

Firstly, it's the cost. The price ticket it $$$. Like seriously? At first when I knew about the concert, I thought at least the cheapest will be probably $100+ and the most ex wll be $200+. Than later, it became cheapest is $200+. Than, it changed to $200+++ near to $300. Now, it's $300+. Oh gosh. I really have to start saving NOW.

Secondly, it's the CHANCE of getting one in the first place. I mean it's like, all the big famous korean bands are coming. Just SHINee alone, their fans is like :O The tickets confirm overnight sold out one lor. :(

Thirdly, it's the most contridicting one.

I feel that I am split into half. One, the sensible side of me. The other is the insensible side.

So here goes:

IS (Insensible side): Heyyy!!! Omggg!!! Really HAVE TO HAVE TO START STOPPING TO EAT RECESS AND LUNCH!!! I GOT TO SAVE UPPP!!!

SS (Sensible side): Heyy. You can't stop eating. You will gain more weight.

IS : Fine. I shall bring food to school.

SS : Whatever.

IS: Oh goshhh!!! Will I even get a chance?

SS: I don't know...

IS: I DON'T CARE. MUST TRY.

SS: But than, is it worth it? I mean, you don't eat and you save up only to spent the $300 (?) on the tickets and you might be seeing them from far... Is it worth it? (If you get a chance to get the tickets of course)

IS: True...But than, it's seriously once in a lifetimeee!!! I mean OMG. Seriouslly?

SS: $300 is no small amount leh...

IS & SS: *Sigh*

SS : We'll see.

Oh gosh. I feel like I am going crazy. I am talking to myself O: But there are these moments where your thoughts just contradicts themselves :( Ahhh nvm. I should concentrate on other things first. Anyways it is after exams ((:

Oh gosh. I can't believe it.

IN 1hr and 36min, E-LEARNING WILL BE OVER!!!:'( I don't want it to end!!!! Things I like about E-learning:
1) You get to sleep later
2) Eat breakfast and have synchronised lesson at the same time
3) Watching tv, doing other homework (hard copy), listening to music and having Synchronised lesson at the same time
4) All the free time to do the things I like

Goshh!!! I am seriously going to miss E-learning. Sigh, just have to wait till next year :/ But next year, I'll probably hate it because there will be more subjects=more homework=more synchronised lesson. Sigh.

Anyways, today wasn't that bad. Chatted with Violet on msn almost the whole day xD And had Eng and Sci synchronised lesson. Not that bad too. My connection died halfway during Sci but after 5-10min of CPR, I manage to revive it but the previous conversation was gone so I didn't know what he was drawing on the whiteboard.

Anddd!!! Today was the TOTAL SLACK DAY of E-learning. Super proud eh (: ALL MY E-LEARNING ARE DONED!(I know there is no such word). Actually, I...well...didn't finish everything. Like those questions they ask us to answer for Geog and Eng, I didn't answer because I guess they wouldn't check. And the thing is that I don't really know what they are asking so oh well~~~ I seriously hope they won't ask for it because I would just die. And I didn't do Science ws too :/ But than again, firstly, I don't know what's the cost which my mum didn't bother telling me. So, hope they won't collect it~~~

Anyways, I really can't be bothered to think of it now. My brain is dead. Argh. I hate this feeling. It makes me feel stupid. And lazy. Than I'll start feeling bad but do nothing to it and continue to slack and feel bad.

Sigh.

Ooo. Hope there's no PBL tomorrow >=D And well~~~ I GUESS I did complete a big portion of my "mini" project. It seems like there is very little left but considering the fact that I won't be able to continue on Thurs, Fri, Sat, Sun and Mon...I think I WILL finish by next Wed. I MUST. =D Than I can improve on it ((:

Start of FAN CORNER~

Okayyy, so the very slow me, I FORGOT F.T ISLAND WILL RELEASE THEIR FULL MV OF LOVE LOVE LOVE. It was because I started to spam Tumblr again (thanks to Violet) that I found it. Than I realise they released all their songs alreadyy~~~ Omggg!! I am sooo happy when I saw it =P. Despite the weird song titles, the songs are REALLY REALLY REALLY NICE!!!=D Their trip to Japan was really good (Y) Can't wait for their comeback =] I think I shall embed the videos here in my next post. Now lazy already xD

And today, only manage to watch 1 ep of Hello Baby which is ep 9. Heh hehh!!! The show is nice (: I wonder if the show is scripted though...Should be bah.Hmmm...Oh well~~~ The show is really funny xD (Y)

End of FAN CORNER~~~♥♥♥

kekekekke!!! I am totally proud of myself now xD I FINISHED ALL MY E-LEARNING!!!Except the Blog post thingy for Eng and commenting on 2 other people's one. But since I don't understand...I'll just wait for her to explain it tomorrow (if she can explain properly in the first place).Sometimes it really scares me how jealous I can get. I realised I hate you sometimes because you seem to be able to steal everything that is precious to me away from me. I don't want to hate you. I hate hating you because I treasure all the memories we had. But yeah, I understand that it's mostly my fault for being such a loser, not being able to protect them but if you can help it, could you NOT crush my already small enough me?
Anyways, today, I shall admit that I did slack alot. I finished watching Dream Team 2 ep 41 and 2 because Taemin was inside =D (Not very interested in Minho~~) And I also made a small progress on my small project. I told you it will be a long one, though I wish I could finish it faster. :/ But tomorrow, I shall make a really BIG BIG BIG HUGEEE PROGRESS with it because tomorrow is going to be my official slack day. That's my point of finishing all my e-learning by today (or at least almost all).

TOMORROW I WILL SLACK~~~~ xD

But than, time really flies. So fast it is almost the end of the 2nd day of E-learning. I like E-learning actually. More comfortable to study at home and you can seriously slack during sync lesson (like watching tv xD).

Today's geog sync lesson was not bad. Ms Sim is quite interesting compared to the Lit (we didn't even have it. Waste my time -.- could have slept for at least 1hr more), Maths (too dead) and Chinese. To be fair, I shall rank Chinese second because 老师 was nice =D We shall see for tomorrow but I don't think it will be any much better considering the fact that we will have JC AND MSN. Oh gosh. What a bad combination -.-

Next up. This days I've been talking to Violet alot =D Hehehheeh, to think we started talking so much together because of chinese oral (we were the 2 stranded at the back people =D) And she is totally influencing me with her SHINee crazy-ness. Sigh. But than~~~ Lalalalalla~~~F.T Island ♥♥♥ hehehhe~~Really excited about their promotions.=D About the hair...well...I realise all their hair have changed for the WORSE -.- Seriously. Hope they change it soon :/

Okay, I don't really have much to say already since today wasn't particularly interesting. Oh, I had tuition and well, I feel sorry to my tuition teacher because I wasn't really in the studious mode and was pretty lazy. Oh well~

Got to go sleep already~~~

G.R.E.A.T

Now my tagboard is just bad. -.- Ok, I shall try changing my tagboard SOON. Change to the type Evelyn is using. I think it's stupid Cbox problem. MUAHAHAHAHA!!! Now looking at Mun Yun's tagboard, I don't feel so hmm...what's the word...LONELY!HAH! Although hers isn't as bad as mine, at least I have accompany. *goes off in evil laughter*

Today didn't get to go *Scape. Sigh.I really wanted to see what Prim is selling but than, Jia Wei they all went for YOG (again) -.- And Tha Yang didn't tell me she was going yesterday ):

Today was slackish. Real slackish. I kinda finished Chinese E-learning and Maths E-learning already. Why I used kinda? Because my dear 陈老师 haven't upload the worksheet -.- And now, I am trying to do Geog. But I feel really slack doing it because it's watching a video and it is super irritating because it keeps hanging. Ok, I think there is too many 'because' in that sentence. Oh well~ E-learning makes me worried because I haven't see all the other subjects but the current ones really make me feel that I am not studying :( I shall go check on all the subjects later.

Start of FAN CORNER~
Anyways, I was watching Hello Baby just now and it was damn funny xDDD Seriously. The part where Key got jealous =D And when they re-acted another show. Omg. That was epic. ^^ But compared to the previous 'story' they acted (without Key) it was funnier. HAHAHHAHA!!!xD Taemin acting as Chunhyang (Y) ^^ Now I'm at ep 8 already =D

Of course, here comes F.T Island~~~

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! I AM DAMNNN EXCITED!!!! In just a few more HOURS, F.T Island's second mini album's teaser will be coming out~~~~LALALALALLA~~~~ xD The most exciting thing is that, THEY ARE GOING BACK TO KOREAAAA!!!!! Ah, gone for one year, I bet loads of people missed them^^

AND THEY ARE HAVING THEIR COMEBACK ON 28/8!!! On the day when we have our Botanic Gardens performance =D (Ok, I've said that in my previous post. I think.) Can't wait for their comeback. Though their album obviously showed that Hong Ki HAVE NOT
changed his hair, but than, I shall carry this little hope that he will change it during their comeback. :/

~End of FAN CORNER

And ok, I am not trying to be mean. But than V_ _ _ _ _ is seriously getting on my nerves. She really really really is. Firstly, doing groupwork is the WORST OF THE WORST with her inside. It seriously pisses me off. I THOUGHT she was someone that will work. But than, she only know how to watch shows and SLACK. Even if she do work, she will just get everything wrong and dump everything to us to correct it. Ok, I shall not emphasise anymore on PBL and Lit. Secondly, her fan girling is very VERY VERY VERY DIGUSTING. It's those fangirls that totally gives me goosebumps. Just looking at her P.M. Omg. I almost puked (along with Jia Wei puking with me).

Let me quote. "Hong Ki oppa, hwaiting!".

Eee. Just typing that made me shiver. Seriously, and yesterday was Seunghyun's birthday. And well, just guess her pm. *shivers again* I shall NOT type it out to save me the feeling of puking again -.- I mean, I know there are thousands and thousands of fans out there that are like that. But the OPPA word really make me want to puke. Especially when I know that person and she is doing it to MY IDOL.

Ok, I sound like some self-centered person. But than, there is an extend of fangirling that I can tolerate until. Oh gosh, I wasted 4 paragraphs on typing about her. Wasted.

Let's move on. Actually, there's not much things to type already. hehehe xD I shall stop here. And move on to do E-learning (if I manage to concentrate xD )

Ah. I can't believe I slept for 2 hrs just like that. Sigh. Oh well. Got to continue with my E-learning -.-.

Anyways, the sudden feel to post is because I want to share a song. Again?

Listening to:

The Angel and the Woodsman- F.T Island ^^

This song is super nice. =D I should put in my blog player soon. xD I think I will never get sick of it!!!Heh heh xDDD

(Hong Ki)홍기's voice is (Y)!!!♥♥♥
Seunghyun's one is not bad too xD


Anyways, I could have finish Maths Elearning yesterday. But than, Violet came to distract me. Hmph. Hahahhaha xD But than, I kinda distracted myself. She was like msn-ing me saying that she was very bored and started learning to type Korean. And I was like O: Because I didn't know how to. So, she taught me ((: And it is super confusing because the keys are different :( And I am going to learn the vocab. And how to form sentence.

BUT TYPING RANDOM PHRASES WITH VIOLET IS DAMN FUN xD (Y)

Listening to:

Boy Meets Girl- F.T Island

Love this song xD Another nice song. From their Cross and Change album. I think this album is the best album. I like all their songs inside. Ok fine, I like all their songs. But than, all the songs in this album is particularly nice =D

Ok, anyways, today we had band and it's not bad. Grace was having the I-just-can't-play-properly-day. Sigh.I understand :/ It's super irritating. I hope none of us get it on concert day. But just the opposite of her, I think today is my I-can-play-better-day. Even till the end of band, my lips weren't as tired. Probably because the parts I play is quite low. =D

But than actually, I feel that our section is more flexible. I mean like, we get to move around. Not always stuck at one part. Must thank Ji Min (last time) and Mun Yun (now) xD It's more interesting like that. xD

Today, Evelyn forgot to bring the Ponyo score. *sigh* And the worse thing is, that was the only score for 1st. We don't even have the originals. So we had to use the fake score where she wrote all the 1st part down on the 2nd. But there were some parts she didn't write down. Oh well. Lucky Mrs Chua wasn't really into that song today. So, saved xD

After band, Tha Yang was asking me to go Musart with her because Shasha is abandoning her today xD But than, of course I didn't go. If I went, I would be the lousiest player there can. I can say this with total utmost confidence. On the way home, randomly, Janelyn, Ji Tao and I went to lunch at Clement since I hardly have free time on Sat (thanks to tuition).

Ok, got to go mug for E-learning. I think it's more homework-ish during E-learning -.-

Oh gosh. No point blaming other people.

Somehow I feel like the GREAT BIG CULPRIT.

ZZZZ. I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING NOW.

But its at night already.People will either think something happened or I am plain crazy.

Ok fine.

I shouldn't have let Viency do the home button.
I shouldn't have let Aiysha do the uploading.
If I uploaded it, I would have checked.
And I forgot to change the title of the webpage.

Oh God. So sorry.

I will not sound like M.S.N and blame on "not thinking properly now" or stress. PBL is draining all my brain juice and energy. My brain juice is limited. You can't expect much from it. Especially when it come to THIS.

8. 

   forevertreasureisland:

   Teaser: August 23rd
   MV/Album release: August 25th
   Comeback stage: August 28th Primadonnas get ready ^ ^;

Ok, this is something happy. ((:

ON TUMBLR.LALALALAL~~~~ F.T ISLAND IS HAVING A COMEBACK SOON!!!!! They are going back to Korea xDDDDD

HAPPPPY!!!!!!~~~

But than, from the picture, Hong Ki don't look like his is going to change his hairstyle for the comeback. Sigh. I seriously DON'T LIKE his hair now. I HATE HIS STYLIST. -.- Zzzz.

I still am carrying this small hope that he will change it though xD Ok, let's hope my hope will come through.

End of FAN CORNER~~~

Listening to:

Magic- F.T Island

I TOTALLY LOVE THIS SONG. It has the highest play count in my iTunes playlist xD

Anyways, today was a nice lesson day. Mix with slack and interesting lessons. Maths, LSCEP, Music and English. English test was ok I guess. I fell asleep halfway. Lucky I manage to finish with 5min spare to continue my sleep.

Stayed back without having lunch and recess. Sigh. I think I can fast with the Malays xD Just that I wil die without drinking water O: Went home, wanted to buy bread but long queue. (People see got offer that's why lor. Typical Singaporeans.)

Can't be bothered to queue, so went to 7-11 with Haziyah but than it is a newly opened one so don't have much food. So I decided to go opposite my house to buy something light that can last me till dinner (You know how my dinner can become supper). I felt bad going to buy food in front of Haziyah but than I asked her and she said she didn't mind =D What a nice friend xD

Ok, I really got to go do homework. Right now, I only wrote one paragraph for PBL letter. Sigh. I need to be more productive in homework and studying.

I cannot get complacent and slack.

I. CAN'T.

Seriously. I feel like killing her.

I REALLY FEEL LIKE KILLING HER. Ok, I am not suppose to talk behind her back like that. It's bad. But really.

I shall talk about Lit group work first.
SHE was the one who VOLUNTEERED to be the group leader.
In the end, SHE was the one who threw all the work to Angelina.
Angelina called her to ask her to find the picture of Lady Macbeth and she was like "Oh, I am doing my PBL now. Going to sleep soon."

RIGHT.PBL.RIGHT

AND SHE HAS THE CHEEK TO SLEEP EARLY. AT 10+pm when Angelina who was not feeling well and NOT the group leader actually compiled everything.

And remember, she was DOING PBL. Right.
Today, I ask her if she finished her part. " I haven't do finish yet. Going to do and I need to draw Lady Macbeth's picture."(Something like that) And yesterday, she still had the time to watch shows. Omg.

Ok, so I thought, fine, we left HER part and we are done. I didn't even think I'll need to stay back. In the end, we stayed back till 5pm. Or should I say, only me and Ayisha stayed back. She actually had the cheek to go home first. "My father is waiting for me."

LIKE WHEN IN THE WORLD DID HER FATHER COME TO FETCH HER?! And she knew she is going to stay back, WHY IN THE WORLD DID SHE CALL HER FATHER????

So in the end, I have to finish the work for her with the help of my dear Haziyah and Ayisha. Love you Haziyah!!!!

Ok, I am staining my blog with a little vulgarities because of her. And it's not even worth it. Argh. And the best thing is, I must be in the same group as her for 2 projects. Lit was fine.

PBL?

NO.

When I went home to check the PBL again. Great. One of our home buttons didn't work. We didn't change the title of our webpage. And the font looks weird because the font Gladys use is downloaded since I didn't have, so yeah, it was ugly. Gosh.

I hate it when I have to work with group members like this. Ok, I am going to stop here. I made such a long post because of such unworthy stuff.


NVM. All this is just ranting.

Ok. I know I shouldn't be here now. I haven't do Science worksheet, I haven't do my PBL letter and I haven't revise for Geog.

But argh, I just have the FEELING to come here now. Partly because I am lazy to do science worksheet because I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ;[ So, I decided to make notes for science. But I realised the textbook has no use at all. Basic knowledge. Zzz.

Oh well, I guess I shall make a quick one here. The stupid 3 dearies (Jia Wei, Li Wei and Gladys) FINALLY CAME BACK TO SCHOOL. Along with the other 2 not-so-dearie dearies Cherie and Dionnis. Hmph. Don't like them for abandoning me for so many days =(. But Kelly is a good friend ((:

Today's lesson was not bad I guess. Not particularly boring but not particularly fun. But gosh, I almost went crazy during science. Or was it after? I TOTALLY HATE Electricity. -.- It's so confusing. After school, waited for Saritha for almost 1hr to go home. In the end, Haziyah, Mus, Genevieve and me cannot stand it anymore so we went home first. At the bus stop, met Janelyn and Sheryl =D Went to buy lunch with Sheryl and the auntie was so nice. She gave us extra muah chee =D.But gosh, it was so fulling along with a rice dumpling.

THAT GAVE ME AN IDEA. Mooncake festival is coming~~~ Should I give mooncakes as gifts for Botanic Gardens performance? xD

Anyways, went home. Slacked. More like watching Hello Baby while making a mess eating my Muah Chee. THAT SHOW IS DAMNN FUNNYYYY xD I totally laughed out loud xD Especially when they were making the soup xD And later when Taemin have to act as a girl xDDD I think my sister will think I am crazy if she was at home.

After that, went to bathe and had the 2hrs serious concentration in work. I manage to finish D and T and Lit =D Not bad righttt. And after that. No progress. Sigh. Ok, I shall go and STUDYYYYY.

AND OMG. I TOTALLY LOVE GLADYS NOWWWW!!! xDDDD CAN'T WAIT TO GO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!AHAHAHHAHAH!!!! ESPECIALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR GLADYS TO GO SCHOOL TOMORRROWWWW!!!LALALLALALAL~~~

It's quite interesting when I read the post I had.

Just between 2 posts, something big actually happens.
Some of my posts reminds me of the happy times (:
While some of the posts just make me feel stupid
Because I typed things that aren't meant to be here
Or hurtful to someone.

But it's quite useless to remove it now.
I shall keep those as a lesson learnt

Sorry to those people who found my previous posts hurtful.
I am really really sorry.

But I treasure those post with all the good memories there.
I've never bothered about Blogger that much (I even abandoned it for quite a long time) until Evelyn started to influence me with her posts on her blog.

But now its like my part time diary.
Why part time?
Because some things aren't type here.
They can't be
Internet is way too powerful. Secrets won't be secrets as long as Internet is here.

Ok, this post is so random. Mixed everything here. Oh well.

Trying to revise maths now. Despite the no. of things I need to do. I never fail to do something.
Which is side tracking.
Shucks.

For a change,

Listening to:

Replay- SHINee

Naw, I didn't betray F.T Island (: I heard finish all their songs today which is why I switched to SHINee. Plus I didn't finish hearing all the songs which I stole from Haziyah xD So listening now :D

O: The song changed.

Now listening to:

WOWOWOW- SHINee (Its okok. I like their ballad songs better though. This isn't too pop too. But yeah.)

I feel so lost now.

And tired.

Is it because I think too much about everything?

Make things worse because I want to make them understand through my own way?
But if they understand me, they would understand my actions
Instead of scolding and hurting me with their words.
They think it means nothing.
Right.

And he actually compared me with his secretary in the office
I can't believe it
Seriously.
I am suppose to read him and let him scold me
Let him vent his anger on me
When he doesn't even understand me
Or even try to.

He has his limits
So do I.

His frustrations are building up?
My frustrations are over flowing.
Wait for the day he explodes?
Wait for the day I l____.

She didn't scold me.
Yet she don't understand too
Why?

Because they think they know me well
When they know nothing at all.

Today, lessons are terrible. But it's not the worst.

As long as if we have Science, Lit and Eng together in one day, it's bad enough. But there's maths, so it isn't THAT bad and the day ends at 1.30pm.

Listening to:

Let Go- F.T Island

This song is nice ((: Very soothing.~~~ Ah, their songs are all nice. I guess I am not use to those rock music yet like SHINee's songs. I only like a few of them. F.T Island's one is all ballad ((: If that's what you call it.

Anyways, to continue with my blog. Had science test today. And I really think I am going to fail. I didn't finish my paper. Gosh. Seriously. I feel worried for my EOY and yet I am still slacking. What is wrong with me ):

Jia Wei, Li Wei, Gladys, Cherie and Dionnis didn't come because of YOG -.- Leave me alone. Hmph. But oh well, it wasn't that bad. But zzz, there are still a few days when they will leave me alone. Don't like them can.

Tomorrow have band. I hope it will be fun. It's a place to get away from homework stress. And Mun Yun said we might have the section lunch tomorrow. Oh well, I wonder if my father will let me change the tuition time. Maybe not. It's so last minute. Ahhh. And he's not home. I think he seriously will scold me. :( If really can't, I guess I will go with Tatiana.

And.

Today is Friday the 13th.

Do you believe in it?

Well, I guess there's nothing much to be afraid of. But some people might. I mean, it's so weird where you have Friday 13th in the month of hungry ghost. Naw, I don't believe in this. I am a christian (: God will protect me. But for 2 or 3 years, somehow something will happen on that day.

I shall not describe it. But you can always ask me if you are interested. It is not as serious like those freaky movies. It's all coincidence I guess. Who cares. The day is ending anyway and nothing happened.

Hahahhaha---

FAN CORNER~~~

Gosh. Happy ((: F.T Island will be going back to Korea soon =D And from twitter, I heard that they will be releasing their Korean album soon. It's not that I don't like their Jap songs. It's nice. But yeah, I prefer them to go back to Korea because they ARE koreans. Ah, that's not the main point. I somehow feel that when they went Japan, they kinda dropped in Korea in terms of popularity. Sigh. It's kinda hard though. Dance groups are more welcomed.

And one more factor I am looking forward to their comeback is that, I HOPE Hong Ki will change his hairstyle. Hmph. I don't like the one he currently have. ): I am going to complain about this for quite a long time. I hope that when they have their comeback, they will change their hairstyle into NICER ones. =D

~~~END OF FAN CORNER

Long post here. Lazy to seperated it. Got to go and TRY to concentrate. If I don't work hard, God is not going to help me.

FIGHTING!!! =D

Have you ever thought of what you want to be when you grow up?

That's what I always ask others but I don't dare to ask myself.

Seriously. I don't even see my future. I can't imagine myself as anything. Sigh. This is sad. Even if I was to dream of something, think of something...I think it's just a dream because I will never be one. It's a joke trying to tell someone. Because it's unrealistic and I don't know...It's impossible. Argh. Sometimes I wish my path have been laid for me since I was young. And if it is something I really like, that's even better. But the thing is, it is not. And yet, there is so little options. Argh. I don't know what I am saying.

Or if it could be like a tv drama. Somehow, the chance will come to you. But like what I said, it's only a tv show. It's planned by the script writer. My life don't have a script writer.

Confused.

OMG.

I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW ):

MY TAGBOARD IS SPAMMED AGAIN. ):

This sucks!!! Argh. The password have no use. Zzz. Plus, if anyone knows about _ _ _ a _ _ _ _ _ _, the password is useless. Aiysh. Plus my blog you don't need to click anywhere also can read the whole thing. Lousy. I think I will change my blogskin SOON, when I have time.


The ants problem is getting worse. Now even my toilet have :'( I seriously can't wait to move house. And the worse thing is, we can't even trace the house of the ants AND KILL THEM ALL.HMPH.


I feel so lazy now...My hardworking side is asking me to do tuition homework. While my lazy side is asking me to watch shows first (since I can't watch it when my father is at home). And I think my lazy side has a higher chance to win. EHH. Nvm. I'll decide later. But if tomorrow we were to have section lunch, than I wouldn't have time to do it. Sigh.

Gosh. I can't believe the National Day holidays are just over liket that. It's too fast.

The worse thing is, I haven't got to study anything. Look at my previous post. I was suppose to study. BUT I ENDED UP SIDE TRACKING ): And nothing got revised. Gosh. If I am going to continue to slack like this, I seriously can't imagine what will happen. The worse thing is, I am addicted to computer already. Shucks. Must try to not on for one day. It should work ):

Ahh!! Don't feel like going school. Should I send my tpc to the TA? I hope they don't find it funny. Because I REALLY THINK THERE ARE ANTS IN MY TPC. And I want the one in my screen to be removed ): I REALLLY hope they won't find it funny ):

FAN CORNER~~~

Just now while spamming Tumblr, I saw a post. A fan said she "hates" Hong Ki now ): Not really hate I guess. She said that she thinks Hong Ki is getting more arrogant (?) because of You're Beautiful and blah blah blah. And she hates his new hairstyle. Sigh. I agree with the hair part. I like all his previous hair except now. Even the orange one was better than this. Hope when they have their comeback in Korea (soon I guess), his hairstyle will change to something much better than this. :/

Him getting arrogant...Well...there's no way I will know. But hope its not true :S

Anyways, just watched finish Mnet Scandal (Hong Ki's one) and gosh, it's nice ^^ The ending was rather sad though. They seem so sweet together. And I pity the girl because when I saw the comments the fans gave, it was like so rude with those b**** and f*** words inside. Some even said they should stop production of this show. Over-reaction~~~ But this is like, those really crazy fan girls. :/ If I even become like that, I am going to freak myself out.

AND HIS HAIR IS SO NICE THERE.

End of FAN CORNER ~~~

Got to go sleep already.

I wish he could just leave me alone. Not answering him back is hard enough. But if he insists, he can't blame me for being rude.

Should I feel angry?

Or sad?

Disappointed?

Sorry?

I do feel sorry now. No matter what, I did make a mistake.
Naw, I won't feel the rest. I will just give up on hoping. On this anyway. Trying to talk to them? Nope. Because they won't understand.

And they don't have the time.

I envy those families in TV. They seem so loving. Like a true family. Maybe that's why I like Hong Kong dramas so much.

What can I do now?
I guess its nothing. I'll just do my speciality. Bear with it till the day I can escape.

One of the things I hate about myself?

My emotions aren't normal. They aren't accompanied with the action normal people do. People cry when they are sad. They don't talk when they are angry.

Me?
I cry when I am angry and don't talk when I am sad. The thing I hate most about crying when I am angry is because I am actually wasting my salt for something/someone that is not worth of it.

Maybe there are people out there with emotions as weird as mine. But I will learn to control that one day. I will.

Listening to:

Lately I- Lee Hong Ki, Nam Gyu Ri

I kinda this song because it seem like the only song I hear him co-sing with someone else. It's quite cool (: Especially when they go different pitch.

Hong Ki ♥

I should have seperated this two posts. Oh well.

This lock probably doesn't work.

Firstly, apparently Mun Yun's blog is starting to spam with those unknown people/machines

and secondly, this thing is easy to hack in.

Oh well. Hacking will be pretty easy but it's kinda -.-

So anyways, got to finish my homework by today. ALL OF IT!!! Than I can start studying a little. I really feel unprepared. I don't even understand Science. And let me tell you something, I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN MJC AT ALL -.- I think he will just make me flunk science. For maths, well, I hope it goes well. There's streaming )):

Sigh. I hate people who tries to ignore something. Ignore me. It's just...well...it gives the feeling that no one respects you. Maybe no one does. Okay, no depressing talks now.

OMG I TOTALLY LOVE GLADYS DEARIEE NOW!!!! ((: She helped me ordered already~~~
LALALLA~~~I've never ordered something online before so I feel excited ((: Though it's not ordered by me, but well :) But sadly, the one with 6 posters is so $$$-ish. I'll go broke.

BUT I REALLY WANT THEIR POSTER!!! ): I don't even have one. Sigh.

Okk, got to go do my homework. It's 2.32pm already O:

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___ ___, ___ ________ _____ ____ I __ ___ ___ _____. ___'_ ____ __ ___ ___ __ __.

I don't know.

I ____ _____ _______. ___ _____ __ ______? __ I ______ ____ __ __ ___ ___ ____ __ _____ _______? __ I ____ ________? __ ___, ___ __ ___ ____.

You don't have to repeat it. Once is hurtful enough.

That hurts.

Intentionally or not.

Shall make a quick post here. Might come back later after studying for Science.

Ok, today was quite a slack day. At least, it's the best day of the week. And for the worst day of the week, we are skipping it this week (: Which is Friday!!! Can't wait. =D

So, now I am rushing to study Science because there is a test tomorrow and I totally don't understand anything. The worst thing is that, I spent quite alot of time on my little project just now and side tracked alot too. I think its more of a mission for myself. But I finished a little bit which is great achievement already ^^

Next. Stayed back to make the flag and continuing tomorrow. The only thing I am looking forward tomorrow is Band. Hope it is a good practice again =D

Lastly, I AM SO PROUD OF F.T ISLAND =D They are in the Oricon charts again (:
13th out of the 40 chosen. Considering the fact that they are actually Koreans, it's really good =D But I prefer them to sing korean songs though... Oh well~~~They are still good =D

Sadly, they are underated in Korea. ): But that's because they are currently in Japan, extending their career there. And it's pretty the right choice because Kpop is usually all the idol dance group. F.T Island is a real band which don't dance. And Japan is good in band music =D So yeah. But still, hope they go back to Korea soon =D

Okies. Really got to go mug. I still have tons of things to read through.

Secretly
Listening to: Girls Don't Know- F.T Island

Ooo. I didn't post for a few days already~~~ That's because, I was busy spamming Tumblr. (Yepp, I created one, thanks to Violet)

Anyways, Tumblr is fun in a way that you can reblog other people's stuff, which is more convenient than searching on your own and uploading on Blogger. Tumblr will probably be the place where I post random stuff (esp K pop stuff~~~). AND VIOLET TOTALLY SPAMMED MY DASHBOARD WITH JONGHYUN -.-) And blogger will be a place where I TYPE.

Mun Yun locked her blog ): Because of the people who spammed her tagboard? Maybe I should lock too. The spammers are REALLY GETTING ON MY NERVES -.- Now Mun Yun is away-ing. Shall wait for her to come back (:

Next next. I am currently embarking a huge project for the sake of FUN =D It's difficult though and truely confusing because there are so many people out there to mislead me. But I'll find a way =D I hope it turns out well ~~~

And, can't wait for Friday. Don't want the science test on thurs. We should just fast forward to friday and slow it down. I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND SCIENCE. Gosh, I really think I won't take physics but what if I get to take triple science? :d

I sidetrack too much this days. Ok, it's time to study for Science. I should get away from my computer. But all my notes are in here and the textbook is practically useless. Zzz.

Okay, last paragraph or 2 or 3. Maybe 4. before going off to "mug".

Today was fun~~~ We didn't have mass run but instead had mass dance. It was pretty slack. Much much better than Mass run *sigh*. The lessons were quite irritating, considering the fact that there is D&T and Science. But there are worse days. Than we stayed back for PBL which was better and funner than I expected =D Went home with Haziyah, Petrina and Dionnis. On the way, met GHG ((: without Rui Ying and Haseena.

It was hilarious on the bus. We were discussing/argueing/making a commotion about our relationship and I thought I was a girl since I am Grace's sister and Mun Yun and Tha Yang's daughter. Than I thought Ji Tao was a girl that's why I agreed to be her twin. And I thought Yu Nwe was a guy(though she/he is supposedly gay) that's why I agreed to be his/her darling.

WHO KNEW.

Ji Tao is (supposedly) a guy and Yu Nwe was supposedly a girl -.- So, maybe I should request for a change from a daughter to a son from Mun Yun =D. Okay, this is so confusing.~~

And on the bus, DIONNIS KEEP PINCHING MY CHEEKS -.- And later Petrina contributed by pinching a REALLY REALLY HARD ONE. -.- So when we got down the bus, my cheeks were red. -cries- I WILL REVENGE ONE DAY.HMPH. And oh yeah, i think i got a free bus ride (SHHH) because when I tap my card out, it says : enter at the entrance (something like that) which means I didn't tap in. But I thought I did ): So, oh well~~~

Later went library with Haziyah to return HER books and we went to buy bubble tea. She ordered banana mocha and I was like WHAT?! Firstly, I hate bananas. And secondly, banana and mocha just DOESN'T MIX in my taste. But oh well, it's hers anyway xD I ordered milk tea. On the way to the interchange, we kinda got intercepted by a flag day person so I donated 50 cents. ^^

This is a really long post. Hhahaha, probably no one will last till the end. In the first place, probably no one comes xD So oh well~~~

This is getting more and more disappointing.

I've realised, trying to make them understand through your emotions and actions have no point because they will never understand. They actually expect everything to be said out loud. And the picking starts. They only notice the bad points. Even if improvements are there, they don't notice

They have to learnt that nobody's perfect.

So, to prevent from getting more disappoinment and trouble, I shall _____ ______. This will work.

Back to the old.