Yesterday was fun and equally terrifying )):

The terrifying part was that we were having combine without the sec 4s. With Mrs Chua. We were (N) and I think we simply pissed Mrs Chua off. I miss the sec 4s )': Than again, I got "demoted" for March to 3rd trumpet. Sigh, I sort of guessed it anyway. But its ok, since everything happens for a reason, well, don't care. Must play well in 3rd than and for Pinocchio.

The fun part was that. I went lunching with Shasha. (: At first I didn't know whether I should. Than I decided that since its RARE that can have lunch with Shasha, so I decided to leave lunch at home for dinner ((: Yu Nwe, Janelyn, Ji Tao and Rui Ying came along too!!!It took quite a bit to persuade them to come, ESPECIALLY Yu nwe and Janelyn because Yu nwe didn't want to eat KFC (since it was the best choice, after turning down non halal food, $$$ food and Mcdonalds). For Janelyn because she didn't know how to go home. BUT BUT they still came! (:

23/5/10

Today was quite a busy day. Wanted to do Eng homework after church and piano. But my VERY NICE father suddenly ask us to pack our room. SO I started packing from 3 and ended only at 7. And I only manage to pack my table. But heyyy, my sis made the room messy. NOT MEEE!!! Even when i only packed my cupboard and my table, the room seem so much neater because my SIS CLEARED HER THINGS. (: But it will soon get messy. I shall give it the most 2 weeks and it will be back to the messy old state.

Got to do homework now though. Still got 1 book review and phrase book haven't do. Sigh.

Btw, I am currently QUITE addicted to korean drama, You're Beautiful. Thanks to Jia Wei I am watching it now. And thanks to me, Kelly is watching it too!!! (: Its really nice. Must trust my taste, since I am not a korean drama/song fan. ((: Very touching too. Eee, but I don't fan-girl about this ok!

I just realised how little things I can tell her anymore. Maybe we have 2 different views on best friends. It seem so scary on how I felt when I saw her. I don't believe that's me. Probably I think too much. I really hope so. I don't want the friendship between us to turn sour. However hard I tried, it always turn out this way. Maybe I expect too much. But is it right to say that, she brought my hopes up and crush it with her own hands? When will I meet the best friend I thought best friends are suppose to be? Huh. Who am I kidding. They don't exist at all. Give up.

My mind feel so clogged up now. My heart feels like its stuck with something. I have something to say but I then again, I don't know what do I want to say.

All I know is, it has something got to do with feelings. Between friends. Best friends. I thought I would have got used to it by now. But when it happened again, I feel the exact pain. Disappointment, it never fail to hit me, doesn't it? What am I suppose to do right now? Is it my problem that it keeps on happening on me? What exactly did I do wrong? Why must someone I thought was my best friend always do this to me?

That time, it is probably just a dream. Or a nightmare? I am really confused. For now, I shouldn't bother my mind further because her. I shouldn't bother her anymore either. Let's just be friends. I should just start getting use to the fact that best friend never exists.

Or maybe it doesn't exist only in my life.

I am so disappointed in you

Hmm, since my ahma, which is DEAREST HASEENA, says my blog is dead, i shall UPDATE IT!!!She should feel so honoured.hhaahahahaha!!!oh well, hmm....

Exams are like over ~~~ and I am slacking like never before xD this feels so nice!!!!! hahahha!!!but well, the sad thing is, i totally screwed up my papers. My maths is totally screwed. It is like the only subject i can get an A1 and yet, i screwed it up. I can't believe it :'( The rest of the papers is as expected, even more screwed. Especially History. I totally crapped the SEQ (which holds the most marks). :'( Science, was ok. I hope I can get good results for that. Its my ONLY hope now.Sigh.

Such depressing talks. Argh. Change subject!

OMGG!!!Evelyn FINALLY FINALLY downloaded her Audition!!! I have been waiting WAY WAY BEFORE EXAMS!!AHHH!!! hahahahha. and Grace too!!! She got hypnotized by me *wriggle eyebrow* and she downloaded it too!!!!! Ahhh!!!Now got more people to play with. So happpyyy!!! HAHAHAHHAHAA!!!

And now, I am totally addicted to a show. Quite surprising because I use to hate that show. O: I think my sis injected something into my brain and made me like it. (So scary). And ARGH!!!! I think i am falling into the K-POP trap. Nooooo!!! Not good. Hmph. I am so gonna pull me out of it!!!

Well, even though its after exam. More stress is coming. Stress never stop attacking you isn't it? After exams, National Band Competition assessment. I feel so worried. I mean, what if I don't pass? I think I am the weakest player in the section. :((( and and and, mon, it will be the first practice the sec 4s not with us...:( I think I am going to die.DIE DIE DIE. The assessment criteria is seriously scaring me. And the warm ups. :(

Lastly, PEOPLE!LET'S GO OUT BEFORE THE DEATH OKKK???? - Applies to everyone I know xD