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All the test is finally over.
Okay, maybe not really.
After OBS will be E maths test.
And I'm determine to finish it.

I admit, I'm slow and stupid.

Even for Bio test, there are people who tell me they actually have extra time when me myself don't have time to cancel a wrong answer which I realised last minute.

But I'll prove to myself I can do it afterall.
Even if it means only during exams.
Then I'll shock everyone.

OKay...kinda dreamy...

And I feel like shouting in someone's face.

I'M NOT A FREE LOADER FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. SO JUST STOP GIVING ME THAT TYPE OF EXPRESSION AND ATTITUDE BECAUSE I HATE IT. JUST TRY MOVING HOUSE, HAVING BAND, HAVING EXTRA LESSONS, NOT BEING AS SMART AS YOU AND HAVING SELF CENTERED PEOPLE LIKE YOU AROUND YOURSELF, TRY TO DO IT WELL THEN.

Yeah, she is the one who don't want to teach me anything.
And she thinks I'm a freeloader.
Not because I miss lessons during Limelight
I wouldn't even BOTHER asking her.
Damn it.

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Ahh such a strong language.

Nvm.

Okayy alright.
Emo-ing time over.

SO

Limelight was generally fun fun and funnn :)
We left class at 9am :D
And well...did Band stuff all the way to...12+?
And we went to Esplanade~~~

And SOMEONE...got her wish 8D

~~~

Okay, the room was so cool xD
At least the first one was. E.g. There were toothbrush and stuff like a mini hotel room 8D
Then...we were moved to a smaller room with lesser stuff.
There wasn't the basket of body lotion and toothbrush like the previous one.
No cusion-y chairs for us to snatch :(

Then we rehearsed stuff...
Well...
...
Okay nvm.

Went to have dinner FINALLY like we were starved the whole day.
Come to think of it...
WE REALLY DID STARVE THE WHOLE DAY.
What with eating lunch at 10.30am...

It isn't even time for Brunch~

I really don't know how to describe it but it was fun. Really :)
Like after dinner we just played around. :D
Talking to Tha Yang was fun xD

And we played the finger game!!
To say the truth, I heard of that games through Maknae Rebellion xD
SHINee and Makbanshi was playing that game on a random episode hhehehe...

But of course, it was a little different~~~

But that is the Trumpet-way :D Okay,not really~

It was fun though. You get to learn weird stuff about each other :D
We should do that more often~~~ 8D

Okay, then came the concert.
Everyone wished me good luck.
And I was touched :)
Well
...
I was really...I don't know...when we were changing seats they told me good job and stuff.
It was so...comforting.
I mean, I wasn't exactly on a verge of tears.
Well...until we went back stage and our section started gathering around me...
But yeah~ I didn't :)

And...
Okay I feel so cliche to say it
But it was like some...
Section warmth type of thing (:
Trumpetland's warmth :D

Still sound weird...
Ah nvm~~~

Well, on the other hand, I had an experience that I definitely won't forget.
And I'll do it perfect the next time.
Okay, maybe I won't get a next time
Since Mr Chua and Mrs Chua will probably...well...I don't know

It was an...experience...

I feel that, my class
my primary school friends
my ex-class friends

they all can be really scary and fake (some)

But I know our section isn't like that because none of us are like that.
And...it's just so...comfortable to be together :D

Trumpetland <3 (without the Sec 1s *evil laughter*)

Okay, the Sec 1s should never see this. 8D

Okay, back to work.

Must thank Gladys, Fangqi and Li Wei for the rose. :)
I don't even feel that I deserve it.
I didn't even want to go see them.
Okay, not that I don't want to see them.
I wanted to, but I just didn't want the flowers.

Okayyy!!! Really, back to work.

You know, I feel that I've just let down everyone.

Especially my section.
Especially Mun Yun, Tha Yang, Jae Young, Evelyn, Hadassah and Grace.

They were the ones that had so much faith in me that I'll play well for my solo.
They wrote it down in the letter, told me, advised me and cheered for me.

And everything just ended up the way it should not.
:(
Okay, but I wouldn't cry. I wouldn't cry.I WOULDN'T CRY. It's just that, I feel so disappointed in myself. Days before the concert I kept on telling myself I should play well so that I won't disappoint my section, Mr Chua and everyone else.

I know everyone was just being nice to tell me I did well. I know I didn't and everyone else knew it too. And no one else made mistake in Limelight except me.

The glaring mistake.
It's so disgusting
Irksome
Annoying

Disappointing

And I just have to mess everything up on the last concert for the Sec 4s.

Time for the slack-before-work time.

To say the truth, I haven't start on homework at all. From yesterday till now.
And I don't even know why.
I hate school this year.
It sucks.

I feel so stupid and slow. Like what I mentioned in my previous post yeah?
The thing is, I don't even understand why do I not understand.
Okay, sounds weird.
But yeah.
Life is weird anyway.

Sometimes I just simply feel that we live for nothing.
Like, life has no purpose.
If it's just work.
School.
Homework.
Stress.
Sleep.
Eat.
Drink.

Live.

Why can it be eventful and meaningful for some people but meaningless to some others?
Like, some people can just be so talented in a certain something.

Music.
Dancing.
Studies.
Cooking.
Sports.
Talking.
Socialising.

Anything.

But I'm none.
I don't even have a talent to start off with.

Huh. Live my life to the fullest.
In what way?
To work like a lifeless person?
Get good grades.
And mug like there's no tomorrow for half your life.
And enjoy it only when you are old?

I might not even be successful.
I might not even be able to enjoy life when I'm old.

Okay, not talking so far.
I might not even score good grades this year.
This SEMESTER.

Argh. This sucks.

Sometimes I really do envy people who can do what they like and enjoy themselves. Have good looks, good character, talented.
I don't know, sometimes all these seem to be able to fit to one person.
And it isn't even fair.
Why can't everyone be equal in a way or other?
Like, each person can possess a certain quality.
Okay, forget it. I'm talking crap now.

Talking about envy people.
Listening to a song from SHINee~~
Okay random...
But it reminds me of Taemin.

I envy him sometimes.
Haiz.
Like, he can do what he is talented at and enjoy it at a young age.
He can go around the world at such a young age.

Sigh.

....

Okay, long post. Shall start on work now.

Okay I shall make this really really, quick.
Since I still haven't TOUCH on my homework since I came home.

So, today had E maths test to start off with. And it sucks. It literally did.

1) It sucked the energy out of me
2) It sucked the brains out of me
3) The paper generally SUCKS

Because I didn't finish the paper :(
I don't even get WHY I didn't finish the paper.
There wasn't enough time?
But why everyone can finish EXCEPT me?
Alicia can.
Evelyn can.
Grace can.
Jia Wei can.
Gladys can.
Li Wei can.

WHY CAN'T I?!?!!?

I'm becoming stupider as days goes by isn't it?
Even a simple concept that everyone understands, I don't.
Something everyone can complete, I can't.

What's happening to me now? :(

Today, I even had to stay back till like 3.45pm to do finish my homework that was due today when I could actually go home at 12.30pm.

This is total crap.

:(

Why?

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And I just remembered,

Limelight concert presents.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

HOW??!?!?!WHERE??????WHENNNNN????WHATTTT?!

How to buy???
Where to find???
When to go??? (Have to be on Sat or Sun anyway)

and

WHAT TO GETTTT??!?!?
Argh.

Oh yeah, did I mention?

My STML is getting worse and worse. By the end of this year, I can practically forget the thing you said to me 10 seconds ago.
O:
But that time, I'll have to write EVERYTHING down.
Argh.
Okay, this seriously IS worrying. :(
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Now, about another sad thing.

I found out, someone is actually a hypocrite in my class.
And it disgust me alot.
Because it's so easy to see through it.

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And she practically showed me that.
And I don't even get why people can't seem to see it.

It's seriously disgusting me out.

And she acts is front of teachers.

Triple ewwwwwww.

To think I actually thought she was good.
Hmph.
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Okay, now, back to work.

Okay, my brain is obviously not functioning well now...
Why?
The first question on a very simple worksheet from a very simple topic, I actually had to redo it FOUR times.

Yeah, how great is that? =.=

I think I should go and sleep. But it's kinda...weird? Since I'm going to have dinner quite soon and my parents are home...I don't know...it just feels weird.

But anyways, today was not that bad.

First, we had Physics and I actually almost fell asleep...again.
Haiz.
And the thing is, I ALWAYS miss the important part.
It's super annoying okay.
Then it was recess.

Didn't go for recess but instead went for a "stroll" with Alicia. It was technically just walking up to the F block (or E?) to change back to school blouse but found out that there was the 'Caution Wet floor' sign so we slowly strolled to the toilet near the mini forum on the floor below. Only to find out that the toilet was full. So, we just decided to walk to the G block toilet to change since it's the best anyway.

And because it was just after fitt workout not long, we were walking at snail speed. Even an old lady will walk faster~

Okay, so life went on as usual. Boring stuff~

Oh yeahhhh!!! Did I mention?
3C3 moved to the 1st floor 8D Because Grace injured her foot :/ But yeah~ For one week~~ But still, better than nothing :)

After school, went home with Rong Cheng, Elizabeth and Alicia. Going home with Rong Cheng is always fun xD She makes me laugh a lot :D And I seem to not run out of things to say to her~ Anyways, we randomly decided to go Subway at Clementi because there have student price for lunch.

And when we reach, the Subway there was closed =.=

BUT.

It moved to the shopping centre BESIDE it 8D!!! Awesome rightt?!?!?! :D
And our Subway experience was epic xD
I kept on dropping vegetable and onion sauce and we had to keep on cleaning up.
Why?
Because we were trying to be hardworking and revise on work.
So, I took out my Physics ws.
And what happened?

Sweet onion sauce-ed lettuce dropped on my paper.
And
TADAH~

We wasted like, one packet of tissue xD Because it got on to my hand, my paper, my face, her skirt and the table. xD

Went home after that~~~:D
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Oh yeah, about yesterday....I SIMPLY DON'T LIKE THE SEC 1s.

Bleah.

Especially the chinese one.
Hmph.
So rude -.-
And doesn't seem to listen.

Annoying.
Irritating.

Okay, I don't know. I feel mean...but yeah~
Hope THEY become better.

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Ah well~ I'll update later, if I have time. I forgot what I wanted to type....

Okay, I would say today was awesome.

1) Not really any lessons

Unless you consider:
-CME
-P.E
-PHUM (which I don't take)
- Assembly
- Class Interaction

as lessons, than yes. Other than Chinese today, I had all these lessons only 8D. That's why I LOVE Odd week Tuesdays :D

Ah well~ Anyways, today the Sec 4s went to perform on stage and it was totally awesome okay...
Sigh. I'll have to work much much much much much much harder :/ After that, waited for Evelyn for like...1hr =.=

And.

She didn't get her class tee in the end.
So,
I
Waited
1hr
for

NOTHING

I was practically class-less because they locked the classroom and she wasn't in her class =.= So I just randomly went into 3G2 and visited Mus, Khadi and Poojaa. Well, I saw Fang Yi there...Okay lah, she don't seem that bad at first sight :/ Ah well~ Shall not gossip about others~

Went with Evelyn to Tiong after that and ate our lunch at Kopitiam. (Y) Then we went to ______ __________ to buy ___ _____'_ _______.

Hhehehehhe that's a secret that's why~

And it was horrible because we didn't recognise the people...And it was a waste of time to find them :( And it was a waste of ENERGY to try and not get distracted...Bleah.

But I would admit that place is a place where they cheat young fangirls~ All the things are so...Useless? Or weird? I don't know...~ Okay, now I'm gossiping about a place =.= Gosh, am I starting to become a complain queen/ gossip girl O: Nonono I shall stop it.

Next. Rushed home. Watched tv and yeah, here I am.

Though I know I'm suppose to finish my chem homework today + Physics ws + Lit research...Okay, I shall start on it...

SOON.

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Well, next thing. The thing that has been bugging me.

LIMELIGHT TICKETS

I just can't accept the fact that most Cresentians are so...unsupportive. I don't know. They can appear to be nice and all but when it comes to all this where you really need their support, they wouldn't come. Say ticket expensive, when we have free concert where are they? Too late? Wow, I don't believe we go home any earlier than them. Have CCA. Well, there's time. So I suppose the last one was actually the lamest reason. No time. And they have so much time to surf the net.

Okay, I'm not specifically talking about anyone but generally, yes.

And and and. I shall say how I actually sell my tickets.

Actually, from selling tickets you can see how that person is close to me.

- If that person is my best friend/good friend, I'll keep on asking her to come. Like, bug her everyday and so on because I really expect them to come. I mean like, good friends you know?

- If that person is an okay friend, I'll ask her to come and explain to her a little more and use some persuasion to keep her.

If that person isn't my friend but I don't know her that well, I'll explain to her the standard stuff and like, persuade her maybe for 2 lines.

And lastly,

If I don't consider them as those that is close to me. I wouldn't bother asking them because I knew they won't come no matter how much you say because you don't matter to them at all.

And I detest those people. Yeah right, they may be your COMPANION for certain stuff, but that's all.

Since I don't matter to them at all, they don't matter to me too.

Yeah, so that's about it. I know it's not good since we are suppose to reach out to people to do so. But then, I tried before and it didn't work. I don't need to go and beg them to come and watch us.

It's their loss.