Huh. Now it has progress to NOT LETTING ME USE EARPHONES.

"Is this the way you study?"

Like he is suppose to decide how I want to study.
If he doesn't know anything than SHUT UP.

I've learnt something today. Trying to talk to a unreasonable person is like trying to make a pig understand music.

I don't want to dirty my blog with vulgarities.

It's not worth it.

Forget it.

He is so unreasonable. Just because he is in a bad mood, he actually ask me to STOP practicing piano. Right. And he is always complaining that I am not practicing. FINE. Cancel my piano than. Not practicing there is no point in going lessons at all.

I DON'T CARE.

Tell him tomorrow no time to practice and he was like "than why in the afternoon after my piano lesson you didn't go practice?"

LIKE HOW ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW HE WILL BE IN A BAD MOOD NOW. DOES HE THINK I AM A FORTUNE TELLER OR SOMETHING?

Why am I coming out with posts on music in Facebook? Because I am doing LOL (laws of life) essay. I thought it was pretty retarded to do. But it was surprisingly easy to do. Within 20 min, I wrote finish 300 words.

It seem to understand. iTunes/ music/F.T Island songs are contributing a lot now. It seem to read me. That's why it is not playing any happy songs. Or maybe partly is because most of F.T Island songs are not very happy sounding. But the songs I am listening to are the sadder ones. And its on shuffle.

Listening to:

Bad Woman- F.T Island

They don't understand anything.
Yet they think they understand the best.
They should be the one that understand best.
Huh
Well, I've given up hope quite some time.
Or at least I thought so.
Maybe there was this strand of hope that I clung onto
Should I let go of it now?

They think I don't understand just because I am "still not old enough"
Right.
So what now?
They don't understand because they are not young anymore?

It hurts to understand that
But I know I have to
They simply have NO time to understand

Fine.

I know one way or another, someone will read this even if it's white. But not everyone knows how to. Or at least I hope so.
Listening to:

Let Go- F.T Island

Zzzz. 3rd post of the day.

I REALLY WANT TO LEARN DRUMS.
I CAN TOTALLY FEEL THE WANT I HAD THAT TIME WHEN I WANTED PIANO.
SIGH.

MAYBE I SHOULD LET MY FATHER SEE MY THAT ONE POST ON FACEBOOK.
YESH.

I shall post on my facebook. Maybe he will go and check (: But it really won't have much effects. I think.

Firstly, they will think it's just a awhile-want type of thing.
Secondly, $$$ is ALWAYS the problem.

BUT NO. I REALLY WANT TO LEARN. (I kinda blocked my father such that he can't see what I type on Facebook...I know this is bad though. :( )

Listening to:

I Knew From First Sight - F.T Island

And I forget to add in my previous post.

WHAT THE HELL IS ALL THESE IRRITATING UNKNOW, NOTHING BETTER TO DO PEOPLE DOING AND SPAMMING ON MY TAGBOARD?!

THEY SUCK ALOT.:(

Today, well...I shall say it's pretty much ok. Except Science which just have to appear today. It totally ruin the whole looks of the timetable. -.-

But I'm pretty proud of myself. (: I almost slept in class but I didn't really sleep. At most, 2min+.
After school, went home with Hiu Wai they all and all the SHINee talks started coming out~ *Sigh*

This reminds me of yesterday. While waiting for my turn, which was HOURS since I was the last of the whole oral -.-, Violet was fan-girling over Jay Chou and SHINee with her TPC. I didn't know she was a Jay Chou fan till now O: I only listen to his songs for a while, than well~~~ I said bye bye to it. And she continued to fan-girling over SHINee. Or is it the other way round? Anyways, I am not a particular fan of SHINee nor an anti-fan of them. They are ok.^^ Lucifer is nice (: Only that their new hairstyles are weird. Except Taemin =D The rest should just keep their old hair. xD Violet showed me the Lucifer MV which is totally NOT new to me because more than 50% of 2G3 is currently fan-girling over SHINee which = hearing and watching that MV UNCOUNTABLE TIMES.

BUT I WILL FOREVER BE A FAN OF F.T ISLAND ((:

Anyways, to continue. Me and Li Wei went to Westmall after that. She need to buy presents, me too ((: And we bought lunch. Not really lunch. Snacks. But oh well~ Going out with her is fun. It has the best friends going out feel. =D

LI WEI AHMA, BE PROUD THAT I AM COMPLIMENTING YOU!xD

We left at about 3.40 (which was very late). I spent alot of time finding that present which wasn't a good choice because of Geog test tomorrow -cries- And I feel so unprepared for it.

Which makes me wonder why am I here right now :(

Next, when I reach home, I was quite surprised because my father was at home. And well, he was sick :( Went to bathe and realised I haven't hand in the maths homework that is due today. I finished it though. BLEAH.

And I felt really bad because for the first time, I ate RICE in my room :( My room is supposedly not suppose to eat ANYTHING. And I started with chips. Than chocolates and sweets. Now, rice :( To be exact, its Onigiri. It's part of my lunch. But I was lazy to go down. Oh well~ I am probably responsible for the ants in my room right now.

Got to go back to Geog. I DON'T WANT TO FLUNK IT. But I have a bad feeling I will :( Or at most just pass. Sigh.

Hmm...I should change the songs in my blog soon. F.T Island got nicer songs. I feel like putting all their songs here. But it's crazy considering the fact that they have about 80 songs. And I have 75 of them :) It's kinda sad that they are underated though. But still, being a fan of them will never be a wrong choice =D

Oh well, such a long post. Probably no one will bother to read. Does this serve the purpose of a blog?

I am starting to confuse myself.
I want to keep the memories.
Yet, I want to forget it at the same time.

Listening to:
Brand-new days- F.T Island

Conclusion, today sucks.
Oral sucks alot.
I waited for 3 hrs just for that 5 min of oral.
It's lame.
And I totally screwed up.

I think my body is starting to malfunction.
Or maybe my brain.
It hurts everyday and I fall asleep everyday during lessons.
Even when I sleep early.
And I am getting more and more lazy.

What's happening to me???

Okay, so that was a fan cum random post just now.

Hmm...I know I am suppose to be doing homework now. For 2 hours, I did 18 words of my phrase book. How great. But LOOOK!!! I've found something while idling at allkpop. O:

Read the article below:

Oh, but this news probably isn't that new. Actually I knew about it quite long ago~~ But I NEVER SEE THE VIDEO. And I was hearing this song on iTunes so I suddenly thought of this and went to search the video. It is well....touching? Ahahhha, I don't know what's the word to use.

This is the video during SBS Gayo Daejun 2008:

This is the normal one:



Hmm...The sore throat was bad righttt. But it's still nice to see that they all made an effort to go on stage to not disappoint their fans~~~ That time I was not their fan YET~~~xD Some people said he collapse after the performance but I don't know~~ And that was how F.T Triple was form. But than again, I don't know~~~ And Won Bin is inside ((: Kinda missed him too, though I just became a fan this year. But you should watch the variety shows they were all in. ^^

Ah, I took so long to post this. Hahahahah. I started at 7+ and in between, finished my english homework (FINALLY) and now I am posting ((:

Gosh. WHHYYY is Blogger lagging too? Facebook is pretty obvious ^^

Ah, it's 12. Gtg sleep~~~ Shall make a quick post here.

Today (25/7/10) was a GREAT AND MEMORABLE day. It was fun ((: CGSSB GOT CHAMPION FOR 2ND DIVISON IN SIBF. So we were invited to play in the Esplanade today =D Personally, I think we played better at SIBF but yeah~~~ Everyone still enjoyed their time there. (:

Holding the trophy was NICEEE xD Got to take a few more pictures with it. Or maybe not :( It will be handed over to the school soon...:( THE SCHOOL SHOULD USE THE $2000 TO MAKE US EACH A MEDAL!!! Hmph.

Mrs Lim came to the Esplanade today. How encouraging. HAHAHAH xD Gosh, really got to go sleep. I didn't do D & T and I lied to my mum I finished all my homework :( BUT D & T is USELESS AND BORING. I shall NOT care about it. Maybe...just maybe I can chiong finish before D&T. I know its the first period. :(

ONCE AGAIN. TODAY WAS GREAT. I WILL NEVER EVER EVER FORGET IT.



Everything was perfect.

I shall post this today. I thought it was a dream yesterday though. So I check again. And LOOK!!!!>>>







xDDDDDDDDD Saw that saw that???





And and and>>>






Ok, this one isn't that clear. BUT FACEBOOK WAS SPAMMED!!! Seeing all this, it's PROVE that it wasn't a dream. Omg omg omg!!! I am laughing to myself again.HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!xD


CHAMPION BAND FOR DIVISION TWO!!!~~~LALALALALALAL~~~~~~ HAHAHAHA xD



Can't wait for tomorrow. First time performing at Esplanade!!!

CGSSB, WE ROCK!!! xD

Done with 2 book reviews and 2 newspaper article. Left with D & T and 4o words.

Gosh, I can't believe how pathetic this is. I actually have to use Eclipse as one of my book review -.- Sigh. I hope I can finish my homework by today~~~

And Gladys, I have great news for you. In case you didn't see my D.N on MSN, I shall tell you here. YOU KNOW MY FATHER WAS THINKING OF VIEWING A HOUSE AT CASTLE GREEN? Can you BELIEVE ITTT? Not sure though... because the 4 rooms there are $$$-ish. BUT OMG. ITS SOO COOL!!!!If I move there, we will be neighbours!!!!HAHAHAHHAHA xD

Hhahaa, the previous post was stupid I know. HAHAHAH!!!Gosh, I NEED to do my homework.

But AHHH, 10 more minutes to 10pm. 10min more to see if CGSSB is the champion band for SIBF 2nd Divison.

I am nervous.

Let miracle happen again tonight. (:

I feel like a betrayer.

I am sorry.
I betrayed 2 in just 1 month.
But I really can't help it.
They are so much better.
Don't worry,
I won't forget you.
You are still important to me
They just provided more options for me
Better options
But you have your good points too

I am sorry Windows Media Player. I betrayed you for iTunes. But don't worry, I will only use iTunes for certain songs. I will still love you.

I am sorry Internet Explorer. I betrayed you for Mozilla Firefox. But hey, I am still using you because I love you.

I still love you 2 alot <3

Results are out for SIBF~~~ It was out 1hr ago but than...CATS WERE HAVING A SECTION TALK ON MSN~~~~

WE GOT GOLD!!!! GOLD GOLD GOLD!!!91.5 omg omg omg!!! For now, CGSSB IS THE TOP BAND IN THE 2nd division xD


HAHAHAHAHAH!!! My sis thought I had something wrong when I cried out loud just now. xD Let's hope even after tomorrow, we will still remain the top band!!! CGSSB FIGHTINGGGG!!! ♥♥♥

SIBF.

I have no particular comments on the competition. Just feel exceptionally tired. Will I be able to last till 10pm?
Probably. Since I have to mug my homework.

Gift exchange was fun. It always was (: You give people stuff and you are excited to know what they will you give you. Gosh, I love all the gifts ^^ Prim's one was cool =] She gave me F.T Island magnets. Gosh, the things she give is interesting. She gave Tha Yang SHINee magnets, Jae Young T.O.P magnets (I think) and the rest who did not have a particular korean band was given magee (ok fine, I don't know how to spell it) noodles xD

Next thing. I'm feeling tired this days. I actually almost fell asleep during Maths, which was the first period today -.- When I was so called day dreaming, Ms Shakina asked me a question. Hah, but she didn't know I was actually listening to what she was saying.

I. HATE. HIM.

Ahh, 3rd post of the day. xD

Finally finished Maths. Ok, not really, but considering the fact that I took 4 hrs +++ just to complete 6 questions...~~~ I knew I shouldn't on my com when I do homework. But I can't help it!!! :( I think I am getting addicted or maybe already is. Sigh.

But the side tracking wasn't totally useless. I finished one of my old projects in hand that I didn't mention. I FINALLY finished downloading all F.T Island songs. xD Ok, not all. Just those that I like which is pretty much everything~~~Even their new album - Brand-new days. I feel super proud of myself xD But sadly, now their albums are Jap ones. Not that it's not good, it IS good, just that I prefer when they sing korean~~~ And I don't really like their new albums FOR NOW, I want the one with the photobook!!!>.< *hints to Li Wei ahma*

And I am currently on the verge of giving up D & T because the weather is simply too nice for me to NOT sleep. And the greatest thing is that, I've only just started D & T. 2 sentences. GREAT.

Oh well, tomorrow there's band.

Listening to:

Until You Return- F.T Island (You should should should watch the MV for this song. It's touching and nice) xD

Suppose to do homework now. But yeah, as you can see, always the case. I haven't even start and I side tracked :( But I am super happppy!!! I see another of my friend listening to I Hope- F.T Island~~~ xD I KNOW F.T ISLAND ROCK!!! =D

Now I am currently embarking on 2 projects. First is to make Li Wei a F.T Island fan xD For this, I need lots of help from my two good supporters Gladys and Jia Wei xD

Secondly, I am going to convince my mum to let me learn drums. THIS IS A PROJECT THAT CANNOT FAIL!!! But this few days my mum's mood isn't very good... :( So, shall wait and see.

Ahh, got to go do homework NOW.

Listening to cum downloading :

Winter's Night - F.T Island

Yesterday was a good day.

Today, well, I think it's pretty boring. First period English, we will have to see HER -.- and after that, comes Chinese test. Zzz. Because of the 3 slow pokes I have with me, I didn't get to go for recess *Sigh* Heyy, I fell alseep during the test and I was still faster than them -.- Science was...un-understandable. Ms Azrina and MJC talk so fast. Ok, he didn't talk today but they both move super fast. Guess I'll have to dig up some time to revise~~~

Moving on. Racial Harmony celebration. I thought it will have some kind of concert like last year. Yet, it was just a mascot showcase and all the blah blah blah prize presentation and it was over. But the good thing is, they released us at 11.45 ((:

Went out with Rui Ying, Janelyn and Sheryl. It was supposedly the GHG outing and YETTT, Haseena and Yu Nwe have council. Ji Tao didn't even come to school because she fell sick :( So yeah, left the 4 of us. It was really funnnnn!!! xD

We went to Mos Burger to eat lunch after walking back and forth for a while (my first time eating it) ~~~ Queued for super long while playing Rui Ying's phone because there was only one counter open -.- And GOSH, eating the burger was a HIGHLY DANGEROUS MISSION because it was super hot, super slimy and argh, difficult to eat.

Next up, we went to mini toons to try and search for SIBF gift but it Mini Toons was not good because
1) Too expensive
2) Nothing much to buy

So after walking one round, we went out and headed to Daiso. Over there, Janelyn took SUPER long to choose her present. *Sigh* She took sweets, than decided to put it back. Later when we move on to the gift section, she decided to buy sweets. So we went back with her while Rui Ying was happily playing with the things at the gift section~~~ AFTER that, we wanted to go pay when Janelyn suddenly decided to buy something else and SO, she went back again to put it back. ~~~

Oh yahhh, before we went Daiso, we went to make that thingy. I forgot what is it called. It is the brown outling thing and it's suppose to put in the oven and later take it out than we put colour inside before sending it to toast again. Hehh heheheh, that part was fun. Me, Janelyn and Rui Ying split the cost for 1 piece and did it. We decided to highlight her hair since Janelyn was a "PROFESSIONAL" hairdresser~~~ The hair turned out (blink blink). Heh heh, I shall not say it out of niceness xD

Anyways, the colour turned out weird when it got out of the oven again. But oh well~~~ it was fun. =] BUT SO SADDD, I didn't keep it :( Rui Ying kept it instead. After walking around a little while more, we went home~

Though we didn't do much but it was fun just hanging out with them. How I wish Ji Tao, Haseena and Yu Nwe came too :( It will be so much more fun!!!=D

Hmm...Maybe I should change my style of writing a blog post. Usually it is written in a way TO people. But I doubt many people actually bother coming to my blog so I shall just change it to a Sherlene's diary type of thing :)

Listening to:

Heaven - F.T Island


Very nice song :)

Irritating. Now someone is viewing my house. And because of this, I can't bathe. Hmph.

Suppose to be doing Science homework now. TRYING to. But well, since I am posting this, it is pretty obvious I am not doing homework.

Ok so I BADLY BADLY BADLY need you now!!! :( It's so bad that I can almost die. You have never been so important before. At least I thought so. I used to hate it when someone mention about you. But now, I can't wait to say I love you and need you!!! - Inspirated from Evelyn-

Yeshh, I need you, shopping.RIGHT NOW. Ok, I sound so *sigh* girly to be saying this. Because I've never ever liked shopping before because I have no idea what I want to buy and it's always my sis and mum buying stuff while I'll be PATIENTLY waiting for them to choose clothes. Or bag. Or shoes. Or accessories.

But now I totally need to buy things. I've thought of what I want to buy. This has never happened before because I've never thought of what I want to buy. It's always my sis helping me choose and buy. But most of the time, I don't buy anything. But now there's no time to go out :(

And oh yahhh, I haven't buy SIBF gifts yet O: I guess I will just buy next week when there is no band~~~

Another thing. I badly want to learn drums. Maybe more than guitar. And I also want to learn korean. But $$$ is the HUGE HUGE problem. Sigh. I mentioned to my mum and she was like, "Drums ah. It is very cool."-Pause- (I was having some hopes than) " But we have no money" -.-

I shall shall shall convince her. Like how I convinced her to let me learn piano. I used 1 year ++ before she let me learn piano. And I am SOOO going to convince her for this too. Determined to.

I have a splitting headache now. I know I won't sleep well tonight.

Gosh!!! Today was HORRIGIBLE!!! :( First, my mum woke me up late AGAIN. 1 hr late -.- But still, don't know if I was late for band. Than, I don't think today was a Sherlene-can-play-well day :( My tongueing was like beyond the usual BAD and I can't even pitch high F properly. Gosh. Band seems to energy consuming. Totally not enviromental friendly.Hmph.

Anyways, the fun part was when band end. Went home with Rui Ying and Alex. Janelyn took cab and Sheryl got father fetch. For Ji Tao and Yu Nwe, THEY NEVER COME. BLEAHH. Talking to Rui Ying and Alex was fun ((:

Hope things gets better soon :)

Why are all the pillars falling now? The ones that protects me from all the bad weathers? The ones that build up the place I once love to go back to? Is it all my problem?

She have her other problems now. Should I stop disturbing her? But I don't want things to get any worse. Seems like, everyday, it gets worse and more complicated. She seem to be irritated and angry with me already. Probably because I kept on clinging on to it. I don't need things to go back the same. I just want the animosity between us to clear. Here I am, standing alone, clueless on what is causing all the storm. I hate this.

Ok, I just blogged. I know. But I wanted to seperate the post. So oh well~

I think I am changing my blog soon. The timing for the blog post is ALL WRONG.HMPH.

Anyways, I just realised how many things I want to learn RIGHT NOW. Its like, dying to. But $$$ is the BIG HUGE PROBLEM. :(

I WANT TO LEARN GUITAR!
I WANT TO LEARN DRUMS!
I WANT TO LEARN KOREAN!

Zzz. But I don't think I will ever be able to. Look, just learing piano my parents is already complaining about the cost :( Can money just fall from the sky?

Anyways, another thing, over fan-girling is scary. Looking at replies on Jong Hun's twitter, goosebumps were like, appearing and I had this little shiver. Its *shivers* disgusting? I don't think I will go to that extend. :) But than again, without those HUGE fans, we won't get our subs right? So oh well~

Really gtg to homework already. Or I will never finish. xD

Listening to:
Meeting (Cheerful Sensibility) - F.T Island :)

At this rate of procrastination, I will never be able to finish my homework. The power of computer. Sigh. I really think I AM addicted to computer. Even if I don't need it, I will still on it. All the school's fault. Hmph.

Anyways, today was quite ok I guess. It seem to pass faster as usual. But it started bad bad bad.

My mum woke me up 45min late. But luckily I was not late for school. Manage to reach school almost like usual :) Than the next bad thing happened was, during the 2nd round of FITT run. I fell -.- You know what, when I was halfway through my first round, I was thinking happily that I have never fall for FITT run before. And the next moment, there I go falling down. But the part where I fell is totally not my fault. It wasn't that bad, I was thinking of continuing to run (because I was getting fat) but the people insisted on plastering it. So, I sat there and waited for FITT run to be over. And so, I've realise, the place where I fell, many people almost fell too. EHH, NOT BECAUSE I FELL THAN MAKE PEOPLE TRIP HOR. I will tell you why I CAPS that.

Friend: "Are you ok?"

Me: " Yah"

Friend "Where/How did you fall?"

Me: So i went describing it accordingly~ than, I added " But alot of people almost or fell there too!!!"

Friend: "Is it because you fell than you make other people trip?" (See.)

Me: "Nooo!!! It was all different rounds. Because there is this thing that is sticking out so alot of people trip."

See, this was roughly what alot of people who ask me if I was ok said. Hmph. So, firstly, that place is a DANGER ZONE. Secondly, I didn't make people trip kk? =D

Anyways, English Descriptive writing test was ok I guess. Didn't really do well. But I didn't study at all too. So, oh well~ We had Chinese which was honestly *sigh*. We practically did Primary school stuff. Haha, someone ask the relief teacher if she taught a primary school before coming but I wasn't listening properly so never listen to her reply. xD We will be having her for 2 weeks though :( Same fate as 2C3 *sighs again*

We had Geog and it was not that enjoyable...Li Wei was like pissed. I shall not describe what happened. Lazy xD. Maths was normal~ Nothing much happened today. Actually, school ended early today but we had extra sectionals.

Band was funny. A bee was so attracted to Prim that it keeps hovering around her. Mun Yun, Tha Yang and me was so freaked out we ran away. Prim took quite some time to run away though xD For Evelyn, she was like standing there. *Applauds for Braveness* But in the end she still joined us and played opposite of our stand. Away from the bee~ Hahahha, in the end, Tha Yang actually imagined a bee was around her. Hahahah, got too traumatised by the bee xD

Ended very early because we concluded that today won't be productive because everyone was tired. So, waited for Janelyn, Rui Ying and Jia En than we went home~

Reached home quite early but I felt so slack I didn't want to do homework. And now I am in the state of mentally wanting to do homework but my fingers won't follow me. Which is why I am typing this now.

Anyways, not really looking forward to tomorrow. Its so tiring.

Today was such a tiring day. Not really physically, but more of emotionally which kinda leads to physical tiredness. Oh well.

First started with, ok fine, I can't remember. My brain is too tired to think. So ok, we had Maths test which was did rather badly for me because my brain went blank. So in the end, I didn't do the last part of the last question and got 2 marks deducted.

Oh yeah, I remembered, we had D&T first. It was BORRINNGG!!!OMG. I really felt like falling alseep. Ok, we did do the drawing thingy but I totally suck at it. And its so unfair why do they keep dividing the class according to index which means I am ALWAYS seperated from Jia Wei, Li Wei and Gladys :( I think I am one of the slowest for drawing that thingy. My visiolisation sucks.

We had a new chinese teacher and well, I guess she is nice only that she is SUPER BORING. No offence, but I felt so confused and tired I didn't even want to listen to her. But since I was trying to be nice to the teacher, I force myself to stare at her though not much stuff went into my brain.

Ah, LSCEP. It wasn't that bad, only that we had to listen to Mr Vu for Flash and Gladys was busy discussing with me about the design of our webpage. So in the mist of trying to listen to both, I didn't pay much attention to class. And cannot hear music :(

Ah, and it was band time. Such a bad day. Once I met Evelyn, she was telling Ji Tao they all that Mrs Chua will come today and we will have a cutting down. I was so shocked. Seriously. I thought our band was small enough. But maybe not that, since Fairfield is smaller. But anyways, I had this really bad feeling I will be.

I COULD HAVE BEEN. But I didn't. But many people did. :( People like Hadassah, Alex, Jaqueline, Yu Nwe and Ji Tao (maybe). They are all working hard though... Gosh, seeing Ji Tao so quiet I really didn't know what to say. =( Though I didn't but it just didn't feel right to be in there.
I think alot of them deserve to be inside. Not me.
Today is my father's birthday. But we had dinner like at 9+. Went to the first decided restaurant but they say they close at 9.30 and because we didn't want to rush our dinner, we changed our dining place and it was BLOATING. But nice (: In the end didn't get to eat fried ice cream because everyone too full :( But than we had cake. Mango birthday cake for my father. To be truthful, Bengawan Solo is trying to improve their deco of cakes and it turn out not too bad I guess.

I am so tired now.

I wonder if it still matters to you...

I think I will change my blogskin some time soon. I hate how the time is wrong for each post -.- And gosh, now listening to F.T Island songs (: Ok, I admit I am getting a little bit more fanatic about them. But DON'T USE THE WORD OBSESSED. Not to that extend. Actually, you have to define the word OBSESSED. My definition of OBSESSED is like, everything you do is about them. (Some examples are in class xD) But buying things and keep on hearing their songs and searching about them is PERFECTLY FINE. Its just what a normal fan will do -.-

Hmm, but I didn't buy much things on them too. Just a deck of cards and a set of posters =] Ok, I need time to trace back how did I start to become a fan.

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Ok, so it was like this.

1) Not interested in K-Pop at all

2) Slowly accepted for some reasons (Probably got influenced by the people around me)

3) Jia Wei showed me one ep of Maknae Rebellion and I surprisingly got a little interested in SHINee (because we were watching the one on SHINee that time)

4) Later, Jia Wei introduced a drama she was watching. And after watching the "MV", I got interested (That video was some fan that took out the Hong Ki parts out and join it together) Back than, I didn't know Jeremy in that You're Beautiful was Hong Ki from F.T Island.

5) I watched and it was super interesting. =]=]=] Jeremy was very cute in that show!!! ^^

6) Later, I learnt that he was the lead singer of F.T Island. And I like the 2 songs he sang in You're Beautiful. So, I went to search on F.T Island songs to hear other songs he hear.
7) And so I slowly became a fan of them. Partly because I saw some other videos on them and accidentally got some variety shows on them. =]=]

The shows are funny xD But the irritating thing is that, there are some where you can find bit and pieces of them. Some are there. But no subs -.- So irritating.

So yeah, that was the process on how I became a fan of K-Pop.

Now listening to Still/ As Ever - Lee Hong Ki =]

Ah, just bathed finish. Shall quickly blog first before I start on my chi homework (haha, the slackest one first. Just copying xD) Today was a really full-of-feelings-day.

Yesterday night I went to sleep at 12+ because of the section gifts and Jolene kept on chasing me to sleep. So didn't have time to blogg. But yeah, today I was wide awake when my father woke me up, probably the nervousness. But I didn't really felt nervous. How contradicting. Than, my very nice sister wrote me a note and wished me good luck which was quite nice of her (I didn't really expect much) Burnt my tongue while having breakfast because I accidentally gulped down one mouth full of hot tea -.- Reached school just nice about going to 8 and many people were there already.

Went to change and everything. At 8.30 Mrs Chua came and rehearsed with us. And I think she got quite pissed because our section weren't watching the conductor :( Mr Chua actually shouted to WATCH THE CONDUCTOR. Sigh. I feel so bad. But I WAS staring at her. :(((

Moving on. We went down after Mr & Mrs Chua left, changed to our full uniform and went had section talk. And gift exchange too ((: Very funny, because me and Sheryl went to buy gifts yesterday together and we bought the same thing (other than I bought something else too). So alot of people something the same because Janelyn ask Sheryl to buy for her too. So hahhahaha xD Should have bought the jelly instead. Oh well~ Shall take a pic of the gifts later =]

Next next, we had band talk for half and hour before moving out to the bus. While waiting for the bus, we ate our "breakfast"= banana cake and 1 packet of milo. Talking about bananas, clarinet section was very interesting. They were actually each given a banana. ^^ I hate bananas but the cake was ok =]

In the bus, Evelyn was super interesting. She amuse me alot. Like, we stopped at a traffic light and she actually thought we were suppose to alight there or something xD But it was funny, which well, I guess relieve that tiny little bit of nervousness. Soon, we reached Singapore Conference Hall. While waiting for our turn, we were talking about teachers and other stuff which was really interesting. I didn't really have much to say because what others say was interesting enough.

It was really scary. In the tuning room when we went through March once, we sounded so weak I was afraid this is going to what happen on stage. And I played so many wrong notes :'( which totally added to my nervousness.

When it was finally our turn, Tatiana was worrying how are we going to go in because she was the first. Aiya, the "route" was straight forward. Surprisingly, me nervousness haven't really "come" yet. Oh, but when we were walking up the stage, I really hate my shoes. It was so huge it was smacking my heel everytime I walk, so it was super noisy -.- Only when we started playing did I start to feel nervous. I can actually feel like fingers shaking a little. But yeah, it was over soon enough.

We did make mistakes but it is inevitable. Life is just like that. But some people cried...:( We did our best already, isn't it? We just have to do EVEN BETTER for SIBF =] In the end, we got Gold. =]=]=] Of course I feel happy. But I guess I was so tired it was QUITE hard to smile. But yeah, we got Gold =] And we will just have to do even better for SIBF. Yeshhh!!! Fighting!!! =]

After everything, we had section lunch. Its so irritating because the section was practically cut down by half. Tatiana cannot go. Jae Young had plans with her father? Grace, her mum was waiting outside already -.- And Hadassah, as expected, cannot go because her mum don't let and she have tuition later. Sigh. So in the end, it was left with Mun Yun, Tha Yang, Evelyn, Prim and I. Shasha came along too.

It was so hard to decide what to eat. Sigh. So we just settled for KFC. We took quite long to eat though O: Later, we went home.

Some things, some times, you just have to stay silent so that you don't spoil other people's day. It might be tiring but you just have to bear with it. Something that I should think have gotten use to it. It's just frustrating how people can cut into your speech before you can say anything. Sigh.

I will wait.

After tomorrow, I am going to shut up.

Does animosity already animosity already exists between us? You know I've never wanted to fight for anything since I will most probably be the one losing anyway. Yet, I feel like things are getting worse. Oh gosh.

I feel so helpless and small right now. This week is probably the worse.

Tired.

The previous post...well, it is time to test your eyesight. To be exact, those people who don't bother shouldn't be reading it. That's why its small and bright such that it hurts your eyes. I feel that I am getting smarter and smarter. Blogger too!!! You can't highlight and copy things anymore which means turning things white still works =]

Anyways, brief account of today. In the morning had share-a-thought and I am quite happy because people did laugh at our story ((: And the next thing is that, my role was soooo minor that not many people will notice me =] I was practically crapping on stage xD

After that we had Maths and during maths I was trying to turn the figure around in microsoft word to see how it fits but the teachers are so smart that the figures can't be turned :( And halfway through my attempt, Ms Shakina asked me what I was trying to do xD After that we had a recess and LSCEP. During LSCEP Bat was trying to learn the Gee dance and Gladys was enthusiastically teaching her. But than, she ignored me. BLEAHHH!!!Don't like her. Hmph. Jkjk xP Next, we had music which I almost fell alseep. And "FINALLY" it was English which we were all so happy about because we thought SHE cannot come due to PBL. But than, DISAPPOINTMENT -.- And since I didn't get to fall alseep during Music, I totally slept through the whole of English. Now you know why my English sucks so badly.

But the good thing was that she let us have 1 period for our PBL and during that time, my attempt to try to do the dance was FAIL because I think I look hilarious when I dance. :( After that gtg for band and got chased out because got CSP.

Next next, when I reach band rm, the whole section was almost there except me and Hadassah. We did warm-ups (which I did quite terribly) and later went to below the hill to practice. But the bad thing was, we practice under the tree and there were so many ants -.- And the smart me came up with the most wonderful idea of using my saliva to drown the ants when emptying my salova xD (Heyy, don't forget I am Agent Spit spit xD My spit is ACIDIC!!!) We practiced and Mun Yun was funny during practice today hahahhahah!!!xD

Anyways, band was quite fun today but tomorrow got band again and sigh, I haven't even buy NBC prezzies :(

I really am wondering what's going on right now. Are we already battling or something? I'm sorry if I did anything that made you angry but it was not on purpose. I really wish that was not about me but how am I to ask you? Even talking to you through msn is awkward. What is happening? Are we still friends? I feel that telepathy is all used up now. You have officially put a lock in your mind. If you do, I doubt I can ever open mine too again. This is weird. Really. I am probably repeating myself over and over again in my posts but seems like I just can't keep it OUT of my mind. This really irritates me. It does. We have already survive this for 1 month and yet, nothing seems to get any better. I wonder if she was smirking at that. Because it has became a joke? Or something she really hates now? She probably hates me now.

I've just realised something. Blogger is going crazy. The words that are meant to be small was actually much bigger than the ones that are suppose to be big -.- Also, gosh, NOTHING CAN BE HIGHLIGHTED AND COPIED FROM MY BLOG!!! Which means things can be hidden as well as if the blog is locked =]

Ah, its 11.04pm already. Haven't even started on homework yet.

Today, we had band and it was weird. It was one of those Sherlene-sucks-more-badly-than-usual day. Seriously, I can't even play an F properly and my trumpet just feels weird and sounds odd. We also practice moving in and out. Ah, have not done that for 2 years already. I still can remember how strict my conductor was. My friend move and he will ask the whole band to do it again. This was much better but I really have no confidence for NBC. I don't know why. :(


Today had Youth Day celebration and well, it wasn't what I expected it to be...But oh well. This week is practically a death week.

Tomorrow= Share-A-Thought
Thursday= PBL!!!!*screeches*
Saturday= NBC!!! *screcches againnn*

PBL!!!I think Gladys will just kill me tomorrow because she was dead serious about the dance. I feel like dying right now. Really. I've always thought dancing was fun but not when I have to dance something I look stupid in. And honestly, I am growing fat. People who are not fat are actually saying they are fat. Than hey, what about me? Yeah, people do say I am not fat too. But honestly, you don't know what are behind those clothes *wriggles eyebrow* Ok, now I sound like a stupid mindless girl who cares so much about her weight. But for the fact that I am fat (just a few more kg and I will be overweight) I really do want to cut down on my eating.

You know, sometime things are contradicting. People think you are doing something but for that person also think you are doing something. It makes me wonder if this is just human nature.

Moving on to another topic. OK really sorry but my post are always mixed with many stuff. It can get a little confusing but it is better I guess. Many people won't want to read such confusing and wordy post which is one way to stop them from reading it and guessing stuff.

On second thought, I might start that project. You will know it when it comes. I really want to know.

Sigh. All because of my slow and useless brain, I did something I shouldn't have done. AGAIN. This days I feel that slapping myself will probably be something useful. It's terrible not to know what is happening or going to happen. Some stuff only happened for a few months and yet it felt like years. The impact was huge. I don't know what else to say. I wanted to do a little project to see if it helps but than again, it will probably another stupid thing added to my list. What am I suppose to do? Live with it for the rest of the years? I should probably just shut up about it and things may become better.

Haha, I should go back to my old self too. As much as I think it is worse, at least, it makes people happier, for some reasons. Let's hope no one understands this. Locking my blog...well, I want to but than again, I don't want to.

Indecisiveness can really make me DIE or something. Probably one day I will be so indecisive I won't know if I should get out of a path of a car and just get bang down. Ok, that's just stupid. But yeah, my indecisiveness can really get on my own nerves. Each day seem to get scarier. Everything is changing, isn't it? Right now, silence is the best explanation.

This should have been the 5th time. But oh well.

I'll be seeing her tomorrow.I hope things will become better. Saturday turned out better than I thought. I hope things will become better. But I've probably just made it worse. There was the time when she weren't able to read what I type. To be exact, no one ever did. It was deleted. But I hope telepathy still works. Yeah, I've no idea what am I typing right now.

I miss those days. Badly. But since she said it was never going to be the same, I hope things will turn out better than what it is right now. But as I've mentioned a few sentence back, I've probably just made it worse.


We were both wrong. The difference is probably just what did we do wrong. But just to let you know, you mean alot more to me than what you think you are to me.


Got to go sleep already. Tired.

Yeah I know this is my 3rd post. But not that I can help it. I think alot of things happened today though its just a normal day spent at home.

Zzz for the 4th time my head is doing some little bleeding -.- Very little but my sister was freaking out when she saw the small patches of blood on the tissue. So I've decided, I shall hide tissue with blood next time.

I've finally read her blog after so long. I knew reading it will bring so much more understanding but I didn't know why I didn't do it earlier. I kinda knew a way to but than I didn't. Afraid? After reading, I guess I have to do a sorting out. Everything is confusing to me now. Probably what she felt that time.

Should be doing homework now but I feel that I should start on my little project. What should I choose?

Okay,I know this is like the second time I am posting today.

But than again, I was wondering why do people like leaving someone out. Out of 3, there will always be one that is out. Why? Because you feel secure and do not want anyone else to break it so that you will never experience loneliness? Hey, than how about the person who is being left out right now? Have you ever thought what will happen if your fate swtiched with that person and you became the one that is being left out? Does the feeling of leaving someone out very nice? If it is, you are a sadist. Or just selfish.

No, you are wrong. Very. It will never be this way and I will never want it this way. For forever, you will be what you are to me previously. I will regard you as how it was last time but will you? I thought you wanted it this way because you're the one that changed everything. I wish you could tell me I am wrong. Tell me what to do. Are we still (HT)² friends? Probably not to you anymore. I wonder if anyone else know what it means now. I just want to tell you, I don't think I'll ever find one again. Once, I told you I didn't believe there will be a friend I can say everything to but I was lying to you. Lying to myself. I believe there will be one. I just didn't think it will ever exist in my life though I want one. I feel so lost and helpless now.

You will never be. Don't worry. I am always the ONE.

I can't do what I wanted, said and wished to do. There's so many things I want to pour out but yet I have no one to turn to. How pathetic is that? It's hopeless. Sometimes I just wonder if something will happen and things will change. But it seems like nothing will happen and everything will stay the same. I have no idea how long this is going to last because I am probably the only one that thinks something is wrong because they seems perfectly fine. I know this sounds so...contradicting? But it is meant to be this way. It is not suppose to be understandable.

Yeah, I am locking my blog again soon.