I can't believe it.
They truely stepped down a few hours ago.
I was so afraid for this day to come. But it still came.

The day started off with us performing in speech day. And I think i screwed up quite a bit because of all the wrong notes :( After that, well, we packed up of course. Me and Evelyn ran up the stairs up and down at least 3 times to see if we can help for anything but first time, the tuba people said there was nothing to help already. Second time, we went to the seminar room(i don't know why) than we realised that people were still carrying the timpani from the hall. So we had to go down to go up again. HOWEVER, but the time we reached there, there was nothing to carry already. So, it's like, run for nothing.

We than had a short break for us to take pictures. ^^ I feel super accomplished because today alone, I took 127 pictures:)

It was than, the farewell ceremony. I was really ok at first. I didn't have the urge to cry.I cheered for every person who went up and seriously.

But after the lights went off
after the sec 4s started talking
after Hong Yi started sharing her experience and her thoughts
I seriously cannot hold back. It's so hard to, especially when I see and hear them cry. I can't bear to think what it is going to be like on Thurs. They won't be playing with us anymore. They left us. I know, face the truth. It will happen someday. But, why so soon? Why should good things always come to an end. Why can't it continue? I can't imagine Trumpet section without Ji Min, Shasha and Jolene. I can't imagine band without the sec 4s.

I totally screwed up the song. I wanted to sing well. I was fine when i was walking up to the front. But the lyrics made me cry. I wanted to stop. I went to the back. I turned around so that my back was facing them but I heard Loosin cry,and I knew it is impossible. I don't know if we sounded horrible but well, the meaning was there isn't it?

We broke up into sections for section talk. and well...i think i cried alot during it. I was ok at first. Seriously. I think no one noticed that I cried before that (other than Evelyn) and I was proud of it. But when everyone took turns to talk, it's like the hard-not-to-cry moment. Even Jolene cried :'( I am going to miss them alot.

Went for lunch at 12.15pm. They actually ordered pizzas for us and Jolene was like,"what? One pizza for one section? How they order one?" something like that =) We than sat right in front of the band room to eat our lunchie :) there was one huge pizza, one bottle of coke (which finished before i started on my cup) and some cream puff thing that I didn't ate. But well, it was really fun. Tha Yang went to take one whole box of chicken drumstick and someone (i forgot who) actually thought she took it for the whole band xD than Ji Min went to take one whole box of bee hoon and she insisted on us eating it as her "last wish" xD

Super excited because we were going to have section dessert time! I dare to say this is our first section outing. We waited for the bus like AT LEAST half an hour and 111 still haven't come. Three 132s went by...When one FINALLY came, it was so full that the bus driver didn't even bother stopping at out stop -.- So in the end, we decided to take a cab. BUT even the cab was irritating enough -.- there were many many cabs but it all were hired and it just zoomed past us. Because we needed 2 cabs, when one FINALLY came, Shasha, Tha Yang, Jae Young and Mun Yun went to take first:) after that, argh, we waited for so long before the next cab came.

On the cab it was rather fun. hahaha, Jolene was forced to sit in the honour sit which was in front (because Evelyn, Ji Min and me went to sit behind first xD) We talked and chatted. Than Ji Min wanted to see my photos (i didn't want to lor. After the Shasha-attempted-to-delete-my-picture incident, i didn't want to hand over my cam to anyone whom i take pictures of) but since she promised she won't delete, than ah well, i handed my camera to her. hehhehe.

When we reached, Evelyn paid for the taxi fare first (reminder to Evelyn: remember to take the $$$ on Mon ok!)I think i owed quite a bit of money. xD but I WILL RETURN!!! anyways, we went to Yami Yoghurt and Ji Min was so desperate to get a chop (which i don't know why) so in the end, she paid quite a bit for Evelyn and mine (because to get a chop, we must spent at least $3 each) ^^ after that, we went to meet Shasha, Tha Yang, Jae Young and Mun Yun at Macs. We talked while we ate and it was really fun. I seriously hope we can have more section outings like that :)

So sad, soon, Shasha and Tha Yang left because of the Musart Youth band thingy. But not too soon later, we all left. And that evelyn ah, because we went out, we saw some mascot and she wanted to go pull it's tail -.- and in the end, she really did xD

We walked to the mrt station. Mun Yun, Ji Min, Jae Young went first. Jolene stayed at plaza sing because she meeting her friends. Evelyn accompanied me to buy my ticket ^^ and for some reasons, the ticket machine didn't come out the ticket.So we went to find the counter and ask the person for help.And super good news was that Evelyn's mum ask her to meet her at Buona Vista, which means she will be accompanying me ^^

K, so this is the hilarious part. We walked around the mrt just to find the train line. And after waiting for 5 min, the train to marina bay came. We took to city hall. Than once the train reach, we saw the train on the opposite side.So, we went into the train and we talked~~. AND OMG!!!I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. Evelyn was like asking what stop it was. Than, I heard as Outram Park. She said it was Kallang. I was like WHAT?!!! we were so smart to take the wrong train which was heading to pasir ris when we were suppose to head to Joo Koon. I also don't know why i so blur today. Somehow, as long as i go to a purple line station, i will meet with some "unfortunate" events with the train -.- so we hurriedly went out of the train. I was super shocked because WE ACTUALLY PASSED 2 STOPS BEFORE WE REALISE WE WERE ON THE WRONG TRAIN >.< Today, when i reach home, i went to bathe immediately. I seriously didn't know why, but i cried while I was bathing. At home, the only place i can cry is in the toilet, behind closed doors because I can't close my room door and my parents will think I am weird for crying for no reason.

Yesterday, it already felt to empty without them. We sounded so dead. The whole band felt like a part was missing somewhere. Back then, I really felt like crying when Ms Goh was talking to us.

I enjoyed the time we had together
All this moments stored deeply in my heart
Where it will be safe
I will never let the memories fade away

You made me realise alot of things
You made me love band
You made me love music
You made me live music

Band is going to feel really empty after you leave, just like how you will feel empty without band. But we know, the spirit of CGSSB is forever there. You will forever be a part of it.

Thanks for all the guidance you gave. Thanks for all the love and care you shared

I'll miss you