I can't do what I wanted, said and wished to do. There's so many things I want to pour out but yet I have no one to turn to. How pathetic is that? It's hopeless. Sometimes I just wonder if something will happen and things will change. But it seems like nothing will happen and everything will stay the same. I have no idea how long this is going to last because I am probably the only one that thinks something is wrong because they seems perfectly fine. I know this sounds so...contradicting? But it is meant to be this way. It is not suppose to be understandable.

Yeah, I am locking my blog again soon.