Monday, July 5, 2010 Y 1:52 AM
Okay,I know this is like the second time I am posting today.
But than again, I was wondering why do people like leaving someone out. Out of 3, there will always be one that is out. Why? Because you feel secure and do not want anyone else to break it so that you will never experience loneliness? Hey, than how about the person who is being left out right now? Have you ever thought what will happen if your fate swtiched with that person and you became the one that is being left out? Does the feeling of leaving someone out very nice? If it is, you are a sadist. Or just selfish. No, you are wrong. Very. It will never be this way and I will never want it this way. For forever, you will be what you are to me previously. I will regard you as how it was last time but will you? I thought you wanted it this way because you're the one that changed everything. I wish you could tell me I am wrong. Tell me what to do. Are we still (HT)² friends? Probably not to you anymore. I wonder if anyone else know what it means now. I just want to tell you, I don't think I'll ever find one again. Once, I told you I didn't believe there will be a friend I can say everything to but I was lying to you. Lying to myself. I believe there will be one. I just didn't think it will ever exist in my life though I want one. I feel so lost and helpless now. You will never be. Don't worry. I am always the ONE.
