Tuesday, July 6, 2010 Y 6:49 AM
Today, we had band and it was weird. It was one of those Sherlene-sucks-more-badly-than-usual day. Seriously, I can't even play an F properly and my trumpet just feels weird and sounds odd. We also practice moving in and out. Ah, have not done that for 2 years already. I still can remember how strict my conductor was. My friend move and he will ask the whole band to do it again. This was much better but I really have no confidence for NBC. I don't know why. :(
Today had Youth Day celebration and well, it wasn't what I expected it to be...But oh well. This week is practically a death week.
Tomorrow= Share-A-Thought
Thursday= PBL!!!!*screeches*
Saturday= NBC!!! *screcches againnn*
PBL!!!I think Gladys will just kill me tomorrow because she was dead serious about the dance. I feel like dying right now. Really. I've always thought dancing was fun but not when I have to dance something I look stupid in. And honestly, I am growing fat. People who are not fat are actually saying they are fat. Than hey, what about me? Yeah, people do say I am not fat too. But honestly, you don't know what are behind those clothes *wriggles eyebrow* Ok, now I sound like a stupid mindless girl who cares so much about her weight. But for the fact that I am fat (just a few more kg and I will be overweight) I really do want to cut down on my eating.
You know, sometime things are contradicting. People think you are doing something but for that person also think you are doing something. It makes me wonder if this is just human nature.
Moving on to another topic. OK really sorry but my post are always mixed with many stuff. It can get a little confusing but it is better I guess. Many people won't want to read such confusing and wordy post which is one way to stop them from reading it and guessing stuff.
On second thought, I might start that project. You will know it when it comes. I really want to know.
Sigh. All because of my slow and useless brain, I did something I shouldn't have done. AGAIN. This days I feel that slapping myself will probably be something useful. It's terrible not to know what is happening or going to happen. Some stuff only happened for a few months and yet it felt like years. The impact was huge. I don't know what else to say. I wanted to do a little project to see if it helps but than again, it will probably another stupid thing added to my list. What am I suppose to do? Live with it for the rest of the years? I should probably just shut up about it and things may become better.
Haha, I should go back to my old self too. As much as I think it is worse, at least, it makes people happier, for some reasons. Let's hope no one understands this. Locking my blog...well, I want to but than again, I don't want to.
Indecisiveness can really make me DIE or something. Probably one day I will be so indecisive I won't know if I should get out of a path of a car and just get bang down. Ok, that's just stupid. But yeah, my indecisiveness can really get on my own nerves. Each day seem to get scarier. Everything is changing, isn't it? Right now, silence is the best explanation.
