Why are all the pillars falling now? The ones that protects me from all the bad weathers? The ones that build up the place I once love to go back to? Is it all my problem?

She have her other problems now. Should I stop disturbing her? But I don't want things to get any worse. Seems like, everyday, it gets worse and more complicated. She seem to be irritated and angry with me already. Probably because I kept on clinging on to it. I don't need things to go back the same. I just want the animosity between us to clear. Here I am, standing alone, clueless on what is causing all the storm. I hate this.