Have you ever thought of what you want to be when you grow up?

That's what I always ask others but I don't dare to ask myself.

Seriously. I don't even see my future. I can't imagine myself as anything. Sigh. This is sad. Even if I was to dream of something, think of something...I think it's just a dream because I will never be one. It's a joke trying to tell someone. Because it's unrealistic and I don't know...It's impossible. Argh. Sometimes I wish my path have been laid for me since I was young. And if it is something I really like, that's even better. But the thing is, it is not. And yet, there is so little options. Argh. I don't know what I am saying.

Or if it could be like a tv drama. Somehow, the chance will come to you. But like what I said, it's only a tv show. It's planned by the script writer. My life don't have a script writer.

Confused.