I'm confused. Really confused.

I can't decide if I should take triple science or double science.
I can't decide if I should take Core or not.
I can't decide WHICH combination I should take.

Gosh. I really hate making decisions. Especially when they are major ones. Why do I have to be so indecisive? It's not good.

Really.

Let's just prepare to die tomorrow.

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Hmm...My father can be really nice if he was in a happy mood. It started out bad anyways. He was scolding us on how we did not believe in God during dinner. But my sister told him we actually prayed before sleep. I'm not sure about her. But I do pray most of the time since P5 (or earlier) ^^ And that actually made his day. So I took the chance to tell him about streaming.

So we started discussing after dinner. And as what I expected, he was promoting Biology because he took it. But even when he didn't, I already had in mind to take Bio. Just not sure if it's 2 science or 3. Yeah, that is what lead me to my post ^ there. So after discussing and changing a few times, I settled on :

3 science, 1 humans (SS+ Geog).

I know it's really risky. But I really want to take triple science and I really hate Humans. But I really must make sure I am strong in SS and Geog than. Okay, now I am debating between Lit and Geog. Lit- not sure if I can analyse properly. Geog- Not strong in General Knowledge.

Like seriously. I can't stand newspapers. Nor watching the news. But argh. ARGH.

ARGHHHH!!!

I hate this. I really do.

And I was seriously in a bad mood because of this and something else _____. So when my father was promoting Bio, it kinda, well...soothe me I guess. It's pretty interesting actually. I mean, he talks and I listen. And I didn't need to say anything. But I was listening. So, I got my mood back. I guess. And discussed about the subject combination.


But well. It's only a trial. Dateline is 25th Oct 2pm.

So, there's always a possibility I'll change it.

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Anyways, I'm happy. REALLY REALLY HAPPY. I mean, it's a contrast to what I just said up there. It's true, I'm experiencing this splitting headache. I.just.can't.think.properly. BUT my father WAS SO NICE!!!! HE WAS BEING SO REASONABLE AND NICE AND NICE. He let me ____ _ _____ ____ :D

And my mum...It was well...Not on purpose. She didn't want to let me or at least was disapproving. So, I got angry. Than I got disappointed. Than I got sad. And I ended up crying (naw, I won't let them see that so they didn't). I felt like crying during dinner.I don't know why. Actually I do. But it's like, why cry during dinenr type of thing? Okay fine, it doesn't make sense now. I'm talking crap. So yeah, my mum grew soft when she saw me being so silent and she ended up helping me persuade. And my father was in a good mood. So they let me :D

Don't blame her. I rarely do that. Like turning totally silent. And I can't do it on purpose like throwing a tantrum or hiding. So she FINALLY UNDERSTOOD.

They just don't know how much it meant. It meant ALOT. But it's only that they don't know. They never do. But how am I going to say it?

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Okay I guess I shall sleep "early" today. Feel so sleepy and tired. Today is a full-of-emotions day and tomorrow will be the -die-death-and-dead day. So yeah. I'm not gonna think so much now. My brain juice is officially squished out.

Night~