Thursday, December 30, 2010 Y 7:17 AM
Kay.
Now.
Is my ranting time.
What is it?
Ranting time (taken from Sherlene's dictionary) - It means having the weird and annoying mood when you just rant on anything that you think of.
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My first rant : The weather.
Oh noo noo. I don't mean that the weather isn't nice. It's superbly cooling and nice. :) And it makes me feel even more reluctant to go to school soon (depressing thought) Waking up at 5.30...haiz. Anyways, the reason I'm ranting is because it's gonna spoil my fan. When I on my fan, I feel cold. When I off it (which is the current state), I feel that the air is disturbingly still.
So what happened?
I turned on the fan. And off it. Than on (is it then or than? O.o). And off again. Well...it went on like these for about 10 minutes and later I decided to just off it since I won't die with the still air anyway.
Okay this is minor ranting.
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My second ranting: 2011
Okay so, this rant is gonna be pretty long because I'm mixing alot of things in. And I'm actually repeating quite a bit of what I said in my previous post. But yeah. It's a rant.
So tomorrow, which is in 40min time, will be last day of 2010.
31 Dec 2010.
The last day of 2010.
The last day of Sec 2.
The last day of me being from 2G3'10.
The last day of FUN.
Why did I say the last day of fun? Because when I'm in Sec 3 Dec hols, it will be going Sec 4 and with all those O levels preparation stuff, I'll be going bonkers.
And when school starts, I'll be mixing with a entirely new class. I only have Alicia with me. And probably Zhen Hui and Rongcheng. But I'm not exactly close to any of them... Okay fine, Zhen Hui is my best friend. But we have been seperated for 2 years. And it's really long you know. I hope we can become best friends like last time again :)
Okay ANYWAYS. Yeah, I'll be in 3C3. With a horrible BALDING CHICKEN HEAD as my form teacher (if the rumours aren't fake). That'll be SOO AWESOME =.=
Like knowing that I'll be the loner band member in class for 4 years is not bad enough.
Like meeting so many new people, not knowing my fate in class is not bad enough.
Like having new positions are not bad enough.
Like trying to make new friends and cliques is not bad enough.
Yeah. It all just ISN'T bad enough -.- What if I meet a b**** classmate who can apparently rule the class and she happen to not like me =.= Okay that's pretty stupid. But I do worry about all this you know. I'm not the popular type of girl but I don't easily attract enemies as well. Which makes me irritated. I am nowhere. And never anywhere.
Being the loner band member in class.When it comes to band, I'll feel so lonely. Not like I don't have experience.
Like, when we are suppose to leave the class, I have to tell the teacher myself and leave the class myself.
Or when we need to stay back for band and I have to find band people to have lunch with. It's troublesome because everyone ends at different time -.-
Or when we have extra band practice and no one goes lunch with you or (like the above point)
Or when we are suppose to sell tickets and you are certainly not the popular girl in class and you don't get to sell anything.
Yeah.
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Okay, this is suppose to be part of the second rant. But I decided to make things tidier~
So
My third rant: Stress
Stress on SYF audition
Stress on SYF
Stress on coping school subjects
Stress of band post interview
Stress on having the seniors leaving us next year
I feel so worried. Soon. We'll be having SYF auditions. And I really, really don't have confidence in getting in. It's true. I may be a Sec 2. But so what? My playings just aren't up to standard. I make mistakes all the time and not to mention the nervousness I'll have. If I don't get in this one, I don't need to get into SYF anymore you know :(
And the expectations from Mrs Chua and Mr Pek. For auditions. Am I not suppose to freak out?
Than, if I manage to get into SYF. All the trainings. And Mrs Chua. The band. Plus school. I think I'll go crazy alright.
Subjects. Triple science. Lit. True, I may have chose this. But I'm wondering if this was the right choice after all. Triple science. Lit. :/
Band post interview. Like I mention before, I don't really know what I want now. That's the problem. And its not that I didn't think about it hard enough. On the contrary, I thought ALOT about it. But I still can't decide what I want. And the thing is, I've never been to an interview. So, I really don't know what to do. What if I screwed up?
And last thing. The Sec 3 seniors (it's still 2010) will be leaving us next year.
Than we won't have seniors to shield us anymore.
We'll be the one shielding and teaching the juniors.
Everything will seem so different.
I wonder how are we gonna cope without them.
As much as I told Evelyn not to worry that they won't talk to us anymore, I do worry myself. What if they don't come back anymore? What if, we will not be so close anymore like now? The fact that now we are so bonded, I'm so afraid to lose it. I mean, sure they will talk to us. But than, what if everything becomes so strange and weird. Like, we did not met for years and suddenly met?
I don't like to shield people. I like protection. :(
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Well, that's for today. Judging by the length of the post, I doubt anyone will read it. Plus, only 3 people have access to my blog now 8D And I took really long to post this O.o
Okay~ Off to brush teeth~~
