Time for the slack-before-work time.

To say the truth, I haven't start on homework at all. From yesterday till now.
And I don't even know why.
I hate school this year.
It sucks.

I feel so stupid and slow. Like what I mentioned in my previous post yeah?
The thing is, I don't even understand why do I not understand.
Okay, sounds weird.
But yeah.
Life is weird anyway.

Sometimes I just simply feel that we live for nothing.
Like, life has no purpose.
If it's just work.
School.
Homework.
Stress.
Sleep.
Eat.
Drink.

Live.

Why can it be eventful and meaningful for some people but meaningless to some others?
Like, some people can just be so talented in a certain something.

Music.
Dancing.
Studies.
Cooking.
Sports.
Talking.
Socialising.

Anything.

But I'm none.
I don't even have a talent to start off with.

Huh. Live my life to the fullest.
In what way?
To work like a lifeless person?
Get good grades.
And mug like there's no tomorrow for half your life.
And enjoy it only when you are old?

I might not even be successful.
I might not even be able to enjoy life when I'm old.

Okay, not talking so far.
I might not even score good grades this year.
This SEMESTER.

Argh. This sucks.

Sometimes I really do envy people who can do what they like and enjoy themselves. Have good looks, good character, talented.
I don't know, sometimes all these seem to be able to fit to one person.
And it isn't even fair.
Why can't everyone be equal in a way or other?
Like, each person can possess a certain quality.
Okay, forget it. I'm talking crap now.

Talking about envy people.
Listening to a song from SHINee~~
Okay random...
But it reminds me of Taemin.

I envy him sometimes.
Haiz.
Like, he can do what he is talented at and enjoy it at a young age.
He can go around the world at such a young age.

Sigh.

....

Okay, long post. Shall start on work now.